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okay so im turning to this website cuz i feel whoevers out there reading this can help me mroe than i or anyone can help.

as bad as it sounds i dont trust half my friends, and the one person i do trust is shoved off in rehab for the next 3 months because of a eccentric mother who thinks weed is a reason for rehab.
anyway.
i started my freshmen year of college last year in september…waited 12 years to get out of the house cuz iv never realy gotten along with my parents. finally got out of the house- did good in college for about the first 2 months. then i got arrested for weed and didnt know what to do cuz where im from- there is no such THING as getting arrested for weed and no one really gives a crap if ur smoking. soo in a way i still tried in terms of classes and school but at the same time i could see myself letting it all go and could see me myself not caring anymore. second semester i ****** it up bigtime. i was an international student in america which means that i needed to have 12 credits to live on campus/in the country. stopped going to class, got dropped from a course- so my visa fell out of status. i was sent home…in march…couldnt tell anyone back home what happened cuz my parents are the type of people that keep all my faults hushed up, which is understandable. so i was stuck at home with friends not knowing what i was feeling, and stuck at home a world away from the life i had known in college. those 4 months were probably the toughest emotionally and mentally. home was hell because on one hand they were punishing me for messing up- which i cant blame them cuz i DID in EVERY way bring all this upon myself…but all i wanted was direction…and they didnt understand my remorse. anyway then in august earlier this month i reapplied for my visa and they freaking DENIED my entery to america. why? cuz of the arrest on my record. for those americans out there u know how many pepole get caught with posesion of marijuana EVERYDAY- AND it is already decriminalized in mass- so to ban someone from the country and college and life they once had just seems ridiculous to me. now im back home again- all my other friends from home picked schools in boston so we could be close again. i havent told any of them any of this. all my friends in college think im coming back. the rest thing we’r about to spend the next few years together in a new city. on top of that. im trying to apply to other schools in europe etc- but its so late…hopefully an acceptance comes through but i just…dont know what to do…i feel so empty…i had love in my life but got screwed over…i have no one to talk to…i have no where to go and nothing to do….minus judgement, please help…

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An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (16 minutes after post)

The best I can do is say Start with a clean slate dude. Figure out your short term goals and then go for them. I’m not heavily religous but I do know you do neeed God in your life. Pray to Him for help and don’t do drugs ;) good luck!

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An Undisclosed Location | 3 months ago (26 minutes after post)

Hey there.

Sorry to hear things suck for you right now. I realize you’re pretty angry at yourself and you’re taking it out on America and your parents.

But it all comes down to you and I know that you know that. I think what’s really bothering you is you constructed a fantasy of what your life was going to be like and it started falling apart on you. And when it started falling apart, you gave up and it shattered.

Know what? I’ve been there. Many times. The anxiety can eat away at you and you decide it’s easier to give up than to keep at it and fail.

I see you’re trying to find schools in Europe. That’s a good idea but keep this in mind: you may not be ready for it. I often think I wasn’t ready for school. I think it would be great for you to spend the next year working any kind of jobs you can get. You need to get a sense of the world out there through your own experiences… and then school will be so much more meaningful to you. You will have a better idea of what courses to take and you will be so much more motivated to work hard at them.

Just accept that you weren’t ready for the experience you had. That would be a really smart thing to realize. Then go out and find yourself in Europe. I guarantee you that you’ll have a far more meaningful year than you would if you got back into the American school. Because if that school in America meant everything to you you never would’ve smoked the weed and slacked off.

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US | 3 months ago (1 hour, 43 minutes after post)

Hey man I just wanted to say I feel you. I totally screwed up with college too. I’m trying to reapply now to a different university than the one I went to before. I also got from being to a place where I was constantly meeting ppl and hanging out to being back in my parents’ house with not a friend in town.

I’m just working now and saving up until I have enough to go off and finish college. I know I’m not going to be the age I am now ever again. I’m in my prime and yet I’m by myself, it sucks. I totally hear you. But really the only thing to do is move forward, as much as is possible, and try to make the best of it. Get a job, work on your relationship with your parents, they won’t always be around.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (2 hours, 5 minutes after post)

haha yeah you guys are alright but the thing is in india its so hard to get a job doing anything lol literally.

i guess like the fact that i was at school in the states and it pushed me away in some ways does show that i wasnt supposed to be in the first place/im not supposed to go back

so the only thing to do is start over but its hard to just..let it all go..and more often than not its extremelly hard to just erase and have the CHANCE to start over

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An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (2 hours, 7 minutes after post)

all right* not alright

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US | 3 months ago (2 hours, 23 minutes after post)

Do you think there’s any possibility for you to go back? I mean if that’s what you really want you should look into it. If you find there’s absolutely nothing that can be done about it, then you just have to come to terms with your situation you know? There are other places in the world, other people, other experiences out there.

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