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Why now!

Ok so I can’t sleep. I’m lying here lost in my own head yet I get this rush of energy. I don’t move at all, but I suddenly feel like doing everything I have been putting off. To finally tell people the things I have been keeping to myself all this time, to ask for help - to find my way. To finally be someone! As if I wanted to run, to shout, to cry. Even dance in the rain (Shame its not raining!)

To do anything that would make this life something. Yet its 6am and I’ve not slept. Unable to do anything of that and I know that, when I could do some of those things…I wouldnt. Couldent. I would be too scared, I would put it off. Feel like a fool. Why do I only feel like I have the strength and its ok when I am not in a position to do anything about it..so yeah, why now? :S
Curse these mood swings! lol

Maybe I should try and get some sleep?

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Miracle Man offline Verified User (2 months, 3 weeks) Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 3 weeks ago (5 minutes after post)

well it’s raining here lol,
try listening to soft music or something

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An Unknown Location | 2 months, 3 weeks ago (8 minutes after post)

Haha, I do the same thing. Inspiration to live life to the fullest always comes at the worst times!
Start doing whatever you feel like doing now- Even if you don’t tell the people, write down what you want to say. Take advantage of your late night (ehm, early morning) mood swings! Just grab a sheet of paper, & let it all flow. Then, when you start feeling a bit tired, sleep. Then, when you wake up in the morning, you can decide what you want to do with it.

Or, you could just try some aroma therapy & deep breathing to calm your nerves. It sounds like you’re restless enough right now that simply lying down would do nothing but make you think more. Personally, as odd as this sounds, it works. Put some rice & dried rosemary leaves into a bowl, and stick it into the microwave until the rice is warm. (On my microwave, it’s just 20 seconds on high.) Then take it out, and simply breathe in the aroma. The heat helps to release the scents, and it’s very soothing. Also helps with headaches.
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2 months, 3 weeks ago (18 minutes after post)

mmm they sound like good ideas! I already tried writing some stuff down earlier (a few hours actually lol). It was not what I would tell them, but it was just writing down things and its surprising how I had to force myself to even reveal it to a piece of paper! lol. I guess just thinking things over in your head is different, once you write it down…it becomes more real. Harder to hide from?

I think I would have to remember the rosmary stuff for next time though, we have nothing like that here :(. I would steal my sisters scented oil thing, but shes asleep so no chance of that lol.

I think I have worked out a plan on what I could do though, I would probably feel so stupid tomorrow though for it! If you were feeling really scared to do something, how would you find the strength to do it?

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kirakira offline Verified User (9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 3 weeks ago (36 minutes after post)

Yep, that’s part of the reason for writing haha! It does make things seem more real, and they are harder to hide from, so that can sometimes lead to a solution, or at least give you a new perspective on things.

Aw, that’s too bad. My friend actually told me about it last night when I was having slight panic attacks because of various reasons, and I now swear by it. (:

That’s great that you have a plan set out! As for strength- normally I’d talk to someone. Whenever I feel weak, talking to a friend helps boost me up & just generally puts me in a better mood. Meditation helps me, if you can find a place to set your mind at ease and relax. And then, of course, I have my little childish method of counting backwards from five and making myself say whatever I need to before I reach one. It’s… odd. But strangely, the momentum and slight excitability from bursting out before one tends to put you on a roll, and let your thoughts simply flow until you’ve said what you need to.

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2 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 11 minutes after post)

How strong is that armoa set up? I find that if something is really heavy it makes me seenze :( (**** alergies!). I know of a site that has a few recordings that are meant to help you medetatite. But I found that the idea of doing it always made me too anxious lol (sounds silly since its meant to help you relax). At the time though I had a friend who was able to conivnce me to do that lol

ugh, already I’m starting to calm down now lol (and thus losing any hope or want to do the things I felt like I needed to lol). Typical huh? Maybe next time i should just wake everyone up and deal with the consequences of it lol.

That sounds cool though, I guess in a way it keeps you on your toes and does not give you a chance to hide? Reminds me of jumping off something high. If you just do it the on the first signal/chance then its ok. If you get scared and don’t go that time, it suddenly becomes so much harder!

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