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Why now!
Ok so I can’t sleep. I’m lying here lost in my own head yet I get this rush of energy. I don’t move at all, but I suddenly feel like doing everything I have been putting off. To finally tell people the things I have been keeping to myself all this time, to ask for help - to find my way. To finally be someone! As if I wanted to run, to shout, to cry. Even dance in the rain (Shame its not raining!)
To do anything that would make this life something. Yet its 6am and I’ve not slept. Unable to do anything of that and I know that, when I could do some of those things…I wouldnt. Couldent. I would be too scared, I would put it off. Feel like a fool. Why do I only feel like I have the strength and its ok when I am not in a position to do anything about it..so yeah, why now? :S
Curse these mood swings! lol
Maybe I should try and get some sleep?
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