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im so confused. :-( confusedmessedup.com

grrr i dont evan no who i can speak to right now i mean well its 4 am in the morning but i cant sleep and i cant evan think straight.
3 years ago i started dating this guy…well when i say dating i mean like seing him we hanged out…made out..spoke everyday..we just got along very well…and i really like him an he had evan said stuff about getting into a relationship. the tension between us was amazing..we couldnt resist eachother an everytime i saw him he made me just feeel unbelivably weak an i just melted. but we never did get into a relationship.

a year or so later one day he spoke to me and said that we couldnt see eachother anymore an that i would of made the best girlfriend but he was still in love with his ex and she wanted him back. (his ex had been sleepin wit like amillion guys whilst he was seein me…she showed no interest in him at all) so anyways that was it i was sooooo sooo upset an i have no idea why cuz we wasnt an item but i missed him like crazy an i felt hurt..evan tho rele he hadnt done nothing wrong.

anyways now 3 years later…
i invited his friends to a party an only thought it was fair to invite him too so i did an he said thankyou an that we shud put everything behind us. so i did..he did to i guess.
untill about 5 months ago we started talkin loads again..and took eachothers numbers an txt every night and spoke till 4 am gone in the morning. wed talk about anything an everything an then he expressed how much he wanted me an in that moment i just melted all over again. now he has a girlfriend who he kinda left me for…so why is he doing this now..his invited me to see him at his new house wit a few friends in a few weeks i really want to see him but im worried that something will happen..i just dont no if i will be able to stop myself..he has a gf afterall. i dont no if his using me or if his just confused as i am…he makes me feel amazing but his made me feel my worse too. i dont no if i can pull away if he tries anything i dont no if i will say no ….i dont no anything…an i cant stop thinkin about him.

i told myself i would never go down this road again cuz of how hurt i felt..but what am i ment to do i want to see him as a friend but how can i wen i`ll just melt at the site of him :-( help

im so confused. :-( confusedmessedup.com

grrr i dont evan no who i can speak to right now i mean well its 4 am in the morning but i cant sleep and i cant evan think straight.
3 years ago i started dating this guy…well when i say dating i mean like seing him we hanged out…made out..spoke everyday..we just got along very well…and i really like him an he had evan said stuff about getting into a relationship. the tension between us was amazing..we couldnt resist eachother an everytime i saw him he made me just feeel unbelivably weak an i just melted. but we never did get into a relationship.

a year or so later one day he spoke to me and said that we couldnt see eachother anymore an that i would of made the best girlfriend but he was still in love with his ex and she wanted him back. (his ex had been sleepin wit like amillion guys whilst he was seein me…she showed no interest in him at all) so anyways that was it i was sooooo sooo upset an i have no idea why cuz we wasnt an item but i missed him like crazy an i felt hurt..evan tho rele he hadnt done nothing wrong.

anyways now 3 years later…
i invited his friends to a party an only thought it was fair to invite him too so i did an he said thankyou an that we shud put everything behind us. so i did..he did to i guess.
untill about 5 months ago we started talkin loads again..and took eachothers numbers an txt every night and spoke till 4 am gone in the morning. wed talk about anything an everything an then he expressed how much he wanted me an in that moment i just melted all over again. now he has a girlfriend who he kinda left me for…so why is he doing this now..his invited me to see him at his new house wit a few friends in a few weeks i really want to see him but im worried that something will happen..i just dont no if i will be able to stop myself..he has a gf afterall. i dont no if his using me or if his just confused as i am…he makes me feel amazing but his made me feel my worse too. i dont no if i can pull away if he tries anything i dont no if i will say no ….i dont no anything…an i cant stop thinkin about him.

i told myself i would never go down this road again cuz of how hurt i felt..but what am i ment to do i want to see him as a friend but how can i wen i`ll just melt at the site of him :-( help