suicide help: My life is currently going going down under.

khahar

My life is currently going going down under.

I am totally at loss. Currently, I am jobless, bankrupt and need to pay alimony to my ex-wife, and I can’t afford a house for my current family of 6. The festive day is around the corner and I could not even afford to buy my 2 daughters (5 & 6) and 2 sons (16 & 17) clothing. Life is really very unbearable. Everytime I look at the mirror, it will put me on thinking how shall I end my day…hanging, jumping or just dash out to the main road and hit by a lorry or van. I will do anything for my children just for them to have clothes for this coming festive day and lead a comfortable life!
Even now I am worry as my current accomodation which belong to my brother inlaw is going to be put up for sale. Where are we to stay!
The only way I could think off is ending my life. My family will benefit as my insurance and Central Provident Fund will be given to them. Nvm me as long my wife, my children will lead a comfortable life. May God forgive Me and understand that this have to be done!

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San Francisco, CA, US | 3 months ago (0 minutes after post)

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An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (24 minutes after post)

i agree, that is very selfish, if you dont like something, change it, get a job, even if its at burger king, at least you will be able to provide for your family

Help me with: my ex was in a car crash at the weekend,

courtybubble 188 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months ago (44 minutes after post)

100% agree. suicide is the cowards way out. you were man enough to have kids and get married, so be man enough to face up to your responsibilities now.
talk to the courts about alimony, and instead of thinking of ways to kill yourself think of ways to make some money and find a job.

Help me with: Bugger me insomnia sucks doesn’t it eh?

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An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (1 hour, 13 minutes after post)

khahar- My heart goes out to you. You’re not alone, there are so many people struggling right now with the sadness, the overwhelm, the weight of things. My advice to you is that all things are temporary, and while it may seem like you will never feel better again, that things will never be better again, and that things are terrible and awful, it’s not true!

Things will get better! As much as it seems they might not, THEY WILL GET BETTER!!!

I’ve been through rough times myself, and the one thing I know is that I truly thought things were awful and wouldn’t get better, but I was wrong. Life is constantly changing and evolving.

You may think that what your kids want is a comfortable life, but what they want is you. Whether they show it or not, what they want is their father.

I recently had a friend kill himself, and it has changed me forever. I miss him every day and am constantly thinking I wish he had told me how bad things were and seeing things I wish he could be here and share with us in.

Your kids, as well as all of us, can handle financial poverty at times in our lives. One thing no human being can ever fully recover from is the suicide of a parent.

Please, please, i’m begging you on my hands and knees, get help and stay alive. You are important, I don’t see you as weak at all. It sounds like you are in a great deal of pain, and love your family tremendously. That is a beautiful thing. They are so lucky to have a father that loves them as much as you do. Your presence as a healthy, whole person is the only gift they ask of you.

I went to therapy when I felt the way that you do, there are affordable sliding scale or free clinics everywhere. Therapy was very helpful. Please, see a therapist.

I send you all my love and prayers. I know it will be okay, you’ve just got to hang on and find someone who can help.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (1 hour, 18 minutes after post)

Please reply to this message and let us know you will get help. I am worried about you.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (1 hour, 20 minutes after post)

If you will do anything for your children, know that the only thing they truly ask of you is to stay alive.

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3 months ago (3 hours, 42 minutes after post)

i understand what you’re going through. i’ve been there. i lived in a really bad apartment and had to eat fast food every day just due to lack of money. i literally had to drag myself just to live for 2 years becoz i so lacked energy and felt so empty. the worst thing about it is that feeling of unable to do anything when you have no one to turn to.. it just feels so weird and so hopeless… so unreal but so real. then you try to do everything you could to make life more meaningful. still not. that was why i was contemplating suicide too…. but not anymore.
it would all change from your perspective, dont give up and keep trying. keep working hard for your family and dont do suicide since it would only destroy the family’s morale.
have you ever thought to seek help from god? though you might think he doesnt care, he does really care… and listen. and he loves you more than you know… other means are only temporary, but what we really need is christ help. that i found in him. he’s the help you need.

moviemaniac32 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (10 hours, 51 minutes after post)

Please know that there is hope. You love your children and wife - ask them what they think, and you will find that they treasure you over any material item on the blessed planet. Please respond to let us know you are ok..please?

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An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (21 hours, 7 minutes after post)

Came online again tonight to see if you had responded. You may not know me, but people out here in this world are thinking of you, concerned for you and sending love your way. You can get through this, who inspires you? Do you have a role model you can think of at this dark time in your life to help light the way?

Please let us know you are okay!

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khahar 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (2 days, 20 hours after post)

Thank you for the encouraging words and support. As much I appreciated, my situation is worsening day by day. I did try to find a job but there’s is nothing available around my neighbourhood. Yesterday nite, I was at the balcony of the 10th floor. I was contemplating whether to jump. I took out my family photo, looking at my 2 beautiful daughter and my wife radiant smile….how happy were we then. I did not have the guts to jump!
I telling myself wat did I do to deserve this…I am the one who should suffer not my daughters, my wife, my sons. They don’t deserved to be into this suffering. Why God turned a blind eyes on us. Why!
Do you know how it feels when you goback home, your daughter, your sons waiting for you…to eat. I have sold most of my personal items already…just left a ring from my late mother. How I missed my mother, I believe if she’s alive…She wouldn’t hesitate to help me out from this black hole.
I am trying to find another way of ending this dreadful life……If I succeed then this will be my last post……God if you are listening take me now!

courtybubble 188 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months ago (2 days, 20 hours after post)

you coward.

Help me with: Bugger me insomnia sucks doesn’t it eh?

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