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well, i think you have a pretty good chance right now to make a fresh start. ive been to vegas, and there is sooooooo much opportunity there for jobs, just go round all the casinos, all the bars, everywhere you can think of and hand out resumes and ask for jobs. they are out there!
ring your electricity company and explain your situation, and make small payments if you can, even if its not much, regular payments will make them look much more favourably on you.
its time for you to live sunshine, your life is just begninning. your ex sounds like a douchebag who made you feel ashamed of yourself, and you have no reason to be.
however, if you are on drugs, that is your number one priority to fix, otherwise you wont be here in a few years time to celebrate your birthday.

thank you. you are very sweet.
you havent been to vegas lately, though. this is going to sound very pessimistic, but it is very real. the unemployment level here is over 13% right now. everyone is getting laid off, businesses are closing.
great idea about the electric co. though! i am going to do that today.
i really tried harder with that man than i ever have at anything in my life, and i am a **** hard worker when i can move. i dedicated my soul to making it work with him, consciously dismissing any reservations and giving it every fiber of my being.
unfortunately he is NPD and I did go through things that most people would have a hard time comprehending.
i have done some things in this life that some may not agree with, but everything i have ever done i have done with integrity. even if it was a dance or a trick, or whatever, i did it honestly! i did not lie, did not steal and did not cheat. if you bought a dance from me than so be it you got that dance and the best **** dance i could do, nothing less.
the drugs are a touchy subject (of course lol. I was born addicted, 3rd generation. It’s a helluva lot easier said than done, but I guess at this point when they are gone, they are gone, huh?

It looks like you have internet access, start with drug treatment. I don’t know what you are addicted to, but my guess is opiates. You need to be in a long term treatment facility. There are some across the country that will house and help you free of charge as long as you can come up with a way to get there. Find a place like that and get there. Your life will never improve if you are living as an addict. The prospect for continuing with your profession are slim at your age, you need to find a way out of the life you are living. Opiate addiction, or any addiction for that matter is a death sentence if it isn’t treated. You need to find a way to receive in-patient care, long term (at least 6 months to a year).

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just because you were born addicted doesnt mean you have to stay addicted. addiction is 90% mental, and it sounds to me that you have a strong mind, so use it to beat that.
youll get nowhere fast doing drugs, people will not hire a drug addict, plain and simple.
there ARE jobs out there, you just gotta look real real hard and be determined to find it. try temping agencies untill you can find something more permanent.
i have nothing against strippers or prostitutes, nothing at all, if youre out there earning money then thats a **** site more thana lot of others are doing, so good on you.
i hope you can one day soon see that the drugs are killing you and that just because you were born into them and have had them in your life for 35 years, they dont have to be int here for the next 35.