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I’m so sad and lonely it actually physically hurts.

I have friends but I can’t seem to really connect with anyone, I’m completely alienated. It’s like there’s a glass wall and I’m on one side, whilst everyone is on the other and I can’t get through. I socialise but really I’m just going through the motions and counting down the hours to when I can finally leave. It’s like acting and it takes up so much energy and effort just to go out, that I don’t want to.

I know I’m depressed, I’ve had therapy for it in the past, but noone really believes me or recognises how bad it is. I come accross in real life as a with it, intelligent, happy person (maybe a little shy). I’ve been a self harmer for some years, I tried to stop but I feel so much worse if I don’t do it. I don’t know how to tell people I’m not feeling alright. I cry every day, and spend most of my free time asleep because I just want the days to pass by. I try my hardest to function normally, but it’s getting more and more difficult.

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rmcgrew offline Verified User (2 months, 1 week) Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (10 minutes after post)

The funny thing about what you said in your post is that the majority of all people feel that way some or most of the time. So in reality you’re not alone. You’ve just been trained that “everyone” else is not like that… No sweety trust me it is not that way. Just learn not to be afraid of being yourself. Sometimes that is hard to figure out but the great thing about it is that you are unique and beautiful person and child. Keep the faith and try your hardest to walk your own path, think of good things for yourself and others. Being depressed is very hard but we all can not live on pills for the rest of our lives. Trust me too you do feel pain, so stop self hurting yourself. It is only for attention anyway. Try to think of something sweet to do for a stranger, do it and smile and walk away; look back and enjoy that little feeling of joy that comes with helping someone else. It is addicting.
Smile love; you are loved and I just said a prayer for your blessing no matter what faith you are or not.

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dogoneit offline Verified User (1 year, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (12 minutes after post)

I really hate writing this line because whenever I respond to posts I usually write it but it’s the truth. I can relate to you. From the socializing with friends down to crying every night and sleeping the whole day wishing for the days to pass by.

Unfortunately, I don’t quite know how I got a little better (in the sense that I don’t cry every night now… just once a month).

But if you want you can send me emails of whatever things you want to share. Or you can blog about them. I used to blog about mine A LOT. Help.com was a great aid, too. Reading and responding to people who shared my same situation helped me figure out things that could help me.

I know it’s really hard when you fight depression almost alone. There are some lucky ones who have friends who would even go out of their way just to give support. In my case, I’ve kept most of my depression to myself (for a reason, of course). Of course it must feel nice to receive support from the outside but don’t think too bad about this. If you’ve managed to reach this point, then certainly you are a strong person. You must have a reason for trying to fight it until now. So hang in there. =)

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sum offline Verified User (7 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (26 minutes after post)

*hugs* Im so sorry

Have you tried seeing a different therapist? Might be a better option to see a psychiatrist because they can prescribe meds if its a chemical imbalance.

Try going out and do new things youve always wanted to do and remember you should not be afraid because if your so bad and suicidal then you know you have nothing to lose to persue your desires and do everything to solve your problems instead of hurting yourself.

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Dr. Ralph offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 79 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (28 minutes after post)

Hank knows how it feels… http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_hDPMJ…

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krisve offline Verified User (6 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 13 minutes after post)

I don’t agree on the issue you cannot stay on pills for the rest of your life. I believe that if taking a pill makes me feel better I prefer to take it, always with dr. prescription. My mum used to be very depressed and passed the best of her years like that because she would stop pills on her own because she thought she felt better and depression would come back perhaps even worser. Now it’s been more than 5yrs that she takes only one pill and believe me now she’s living. Dr explains that she has insufficient brain chemicals which now is taking from this pill. Better to seek a professional help and let him lead you, don’t make the mistake of stopping whenever you like.

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