god help: I am spiritually lost and can’t find my path and my inner peace.

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I am spiritually lost and can’t find my path and my inner peace.

For several years I was on a deep and meaningful spiritual journey where I travelled the world, experienced many different faiths, encountered many rich and unusual spiritual experiences and opened my heart to God and the world. I was praying and meditating every day, working in the healing field as a massage therapist and doing energy work and felt I had found my place in the world and my inner light. I wasn’t identifying with any one religion, but rather accepting of God and each persons own unique connection with him and respecting that. I felt I was on a path to enlightenment in a way and I was so happy.

Two years and a bad relationship that took all my joy and self worth and I am lost spiritually. I have since married a wonderful man and am expecting my first child, but I no longer have the inner joy and passion about life and God and the beauty of life I once did. I feel I am just floating through a mediocre existance despite my deep desire to connect with God and meaning. I try to meditate but get distracted, I look at things half empty and negatively automatically when I used to always be the oppposite. I don’t know what has happened to me and I am so sad that the beautiful life path I was once on has turned into a stale life without direction.

I don’t open myself up to people anymore and am afraid to get close to anyone for fear of being hurt, so I spend my time in solitude or with my husband but it is a lot of pressure on him. I used to paint beautiful scenes of life and write poetry and stories and make pottery and take beautiful photographs as a passion, but all my creativity has dried up and I spend my days just thinking and feeling sad.

I want to find myself so badly and connect with God and the light again, but I can’t seem to. I pray for help and guidance and understanding, but I feel my connection is blocked.

Someone please help me, I am desperate to find myself again and enjoy this short life we are given to the fullest and appreciate my husband and daughter on the way and just make friends and be happy, but I can’t. I am not depressed, and don’t need advice on seeking help for depression as I have already tried therapy, exercise, etc. I feel this is a mental and spiritual block and am looking for help in that direction.

Your time, experiences and guidance will be so appreciated.

Thank you

Sam

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Sir Cody † 55 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (18 minutes after post)

The greatest man that lived and continues to live said that he who seeks to save his life will loose it, but he who looses it for my sake will find it.

Many people are able to find some semblance of peace by ignoring that which disturbs them; I used to do that. I am now able to look at the worst that humanity can offer and be at total peace. Peace is not found, but given.

Christ gave me that peace.

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An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (9 hours, 32 minutes after post)

I understand your philosophy and accepting others people beliefs and religions, however, you must come to the conclusion that truth is absolute, and there can be only one truth and it is impossible for multiple truths to exist.

were you seeking God? or were you truly seeking your own desires, your own ideas? with all do respect, your own religion?

What God do you speak of is my question?

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An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (9 hours, 42 minutes after post)

You haven’t lost your spirituality. You are seeing the veil in front of the truth of who you really are. The truth, the light, is always there, all around you. It may feel as if you are all alone, but maybe you are not associating your new life(wife,mother,creative woman)with your past spirituality. It is harder, I have found to stay clear minded when you are responsible for others, and not just your own inner life. Live in the now, not the then. We all change and those around us,no matter how they affect us, good or bad, teach us something. Your power is right there, right now inside you, like your heart beating. It has not gone anywhere. Be grateful for you husband and the second soul inside of you. I understand where you are coming from more than you know. Love yourself.
Namaste

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An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (17 hours, 35 minutes after post)

I know how you feel and what you are going through. It is a strange feeling but one that will not last for long when you seek Jesus Christ. I have attempted to open my heart to other faiths only finding myself drawn to the Trinity. Every time I draw close to God, temptations would slip me away only to find that when I go back (to Jesus) I get back stronger once I understand His purpose. Believe me Jesus is the true fountain of peace and love. Anything felt out of His love is short lived and never long lasting. This may be hard to digest but I challenge anyone to find SYSTAINABLE and deep inner peace without Jesus Christ…All it takes is an open and willing heart to welcome Him in… You will never look back

Christ loves to draw close His children to him and will never reject anyone heart. I envy your position for I strongly believe this is when God will be strongly felt in your life. I wish you all the best in your journey and may God bless your new born!

From Your bother in Christ.

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jaymic 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 2 weeks ago (3 weeks, 2 days after post)

WHY does everyTHING IN Me tell mxe i amx the one?

woodysamanth 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 2 weeks ago (3 weeks, 2 days after post)

The one what?

jaymic 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 weeks, 3 days ago (1 month, 2 weeks after post)

The one who changes the world. The one who free the people from opression. The one sent by God.

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An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 5 days ago (1 month, 3 weeks after post)

one must realize they are spiritually lost b4 they can move forward with the most fullfilling promises of Christ…which will fill the void that every heart contains until they come to the point in their lives that they realize nothing in this world can fill that void…..great as some things in this world are like family love and friends nothing fills the longing for a God than the one we all have…….

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