life help: I am becoming more and more reckless in my actions, doing things that are harmful to me and others. - Help.com

Why do you do this things, do you gain anything from it?
How long have you been doing this for and do you know of anything that may of triggered this?
What do other people that know you say about this?

Sometimes what you want is not what you need. Believe in yourself and those two things will unite.

Its been going on for a few years. I generally keep it all from my friends and family, hide it from them. I cant think of a particular trigger, i am just starting to believe if i dont start to change my ways i am going to end up in real trouble.

What kind of things are you doing and how are they harmful or could be harmful?

How do you feel at the time?

Anonymous wrote:
Its been going on for a few years. I generally keep it all from my friends and family, hide it from them. I cant think of a particular trigger, i am just starting to believe if i dont start to change my ways i am going to end up in real trouble.

Yes indeed.

killing someone, jail, being outcast. These will b your realities if u dont stop.

Anonymous wrote:
killing someone, jail, being outcast. These will b your realities if u dont stop.

you forgot to add about hell.

I am binging heavily on drink and drugs. Sleeping with women i should not be, women that should be out of bounds. Lying to and betraying people i care about, all things that are making me feel really bad about myself when to everyone i know i am not those things.

Sounds like self destruction to me, some people go through something like this to rebel against something or someone while others do it just because they can. You seem to be doing it to ruin yourself.
Do you like who you are, before you started doing all this?
Is there anything you feel bad about that lead you to do these things?

If you are doing this without anyone knowing then it would mean it is off your own back and not because of the crowd your in.

I think if you want to get away from this you need to tell someone close to you what is going on, someone who can help, maybe a parent/sibling/teacher anytone like that?

How easy would it be for you to get to a therapist?
You may be able to get to the route of the problem faster and easier that way because your actions seem to be a symptom of something else.

part of the problem i feel is that there is no one close to me i feel i can go to about my problems. considering i have many loved ones around me i have never felt so lonely. i have had many problems in my life and no one to really talk to.

Then you need to make someone listen to you and be that person you can talk to.
You can assume no one wants to hear and you can asume no one cares but assumption and reality are different.
You need to dig out the route of what is going on and to be honest I don’t see you being able to do that on your own.