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The other night I almost killed myself.
I am 18, male, and a freshman in college. What started out as a night of having a few drinks ended with me in the hospital.
I was with three of my friends just hanging out and having a good time. We had a large bottle of vodka that we were going to split between us. Before they got started I had made a mix drink and i chugged it practically.
A little while later we went to my room to do a few shots. Only thing is, as i took my third shot, I said **** it and started to chug the bottle. My friends stopped me and they didn’t know I had been drinking before them as well. Thats the last thing I remember.
From what I’m told we stumbled down the hall to my friend’s room and sat down to play some video games. What happened in the next five minutes usually occurs throughout a whole night of drinking.
At first I was happy, but as all of the alcohol started to hit me at once I started to become depressed and almost cried because a family member was recently in a horrific car crash. Then I was angry, to the point where I full on wound up and punched the bathroom mirror, thank god it didn’t shatter.
My friends forced me into the bathroom because they knew I had way too much to drink and they wanted me to throw up in the toilette.
They left to get my RA and when they came back I was passed out on the bathroom floor. I was going in and out of conciousness and I was continueing to vomit even when I was unconcious.
My RA called an ambulance and I had to be taken out on a stretcher due to the lack of consiousness. I was still throwing up unconcious on the stretcher.
I wake up in the hospital the next morning with dual IV’s and my dad, who works a couple hundred miles away waiting for me.
When I get checked out he tries to comfort me and to help me get through it. He also informed me how on both his side of the family and my mother’s there are alcoholics.
I have a very hard time talking with people about how I am feeling. I simply cannot do it. I was very upset and angry about my family member, I picked up a bottle and started to chug, liquid courage right?
Dear god I need some help right now.
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