Hi I’m new here, really need help.

redrose88

Hi I’m new here, really need help.

I need help with something, maby you can help if you are interested?
Ok, there is a school reunion coming up in October. I haven’t seen these kids since I was 16 years old (5 years ago) And I am so nervous about this that I cant sleep! I think we were about 200 in the school born in the 1988. And I’m not in contact with any of them. These years in school were not so easy for me and I always felt like a ghost. I only had one friend, she was my bestest friend for few years until I found out that she and my Ex (we were together for 2 years) were seeing each other and I was the last one to know about it, and when I asked her she told me I was crazy and yeah.. just fu*kd me over! I’m not gonna get to the whole story but I was never the same person after that and I still am not. I started using drugs, allot of them, my parents couldn’t deal with me so they threw me out few times, I can’t even trust a person today, I always think that everybody is going to do something against me. I have been seeing a pshcyatris for a long time, but this thing never goes away.
Any how.. This reunion is coming up.. as I told you befor I was like a ghost back then, really shy, I wasn’t cute, I just wasn’t anything.. I don’t really want to go to that reunion, but some part of me wants to go and be visible.. I don’t want people allways to think of me as the ghost. Everytime I see any of these kids my whole body starts to shake and I get really nervous. And I havent seen my ex best friend since all the drama happened and I would like to ask her why she did what she did. But I’m just so scared!
So how would you do this? Would you go to the reunion not knowing if you will be accepted or not?

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Cell 57 #
Winnipeg, MB, CA | 2 months, 1 week ago (2 minutes after post)

I wouldn’t go. I would leave the past behind and cultivate current positive relationships.

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littlenick 133 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (4 minutes after post)

I would exercise like hell and quit doing drugs and try to go as lean and mean as a fighting machine. Get to it. Whether you get accepted or not, I bet you there’s a lot of other people who are also thinking the same thing. And if you don’t get accepted, so what? Now you are old enough to just say “f**k it” and move on.

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becc 107 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (5 minutes after post)

i would not go. you have your own life now, a better life. dont go back to all those bad memories. and i wouldn’t even call that girl your best friend because a best friend would NEVER do that. but if you kind of want to figure out what happen to like talk to her go ahead. but i dont think you will feel comfortable there. so i would say dont go. goodluck!.

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musicfan1994 1 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (38 minutes after post)

I wouldn’t go to the reunion. If you did, it would only make you more nervous than you are now. If you go, you will be going back to the bad memories of your best friend and the time when you started using drugs; if you went you would remember those times and you would feel all the worst after. But if you want to go: stay strong, be brave and, most of all, hold your nerves! But personally, I wouldn’t go.

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redrose88 0 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (47 minutes after post)

Thank you guys! :) I didn’t expect so many answers :) I guess your right.. maby not go now.. I don’t even know these kids and they are all very tight. Maby I go next time if I’m feeling stronger :)

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