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I am always considering suicide and have even attempted it before.

It didn’t work. I always fight with my mom and dad, especially mom, and my twin sister. My older brother, who I love so much, is living at home because he is depressed and diagnosed with drug abuse. My older sister is happily at college. I just started high school. I have lots of friends and I don’t even see them that often. Everyone at school thinks I’m so happy and I’m just not. I don’t know what to do with my life. My parents won’t let me see this boy I’m thinking i’m in love with. I can’t live like this anymore! I’ve popped pills before and had to get my stomach pumped. I’m scared because it hurt but I want to kill myself right now. I can’t take it anymore.

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ameliaearthlin offline Verified User (9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 14 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (10 minutes after post)

How long have u been suicidal?
Are u on meds for depression… some of us lack the happy chemical in the brain.. it often runs in families. You may need to suppliment that chemical like I did by going on happy pills, sounds like your older brother self medicated… drugs gave him that chemical.. but drugs which are not managed are dangerous.
Get your mum to take u to the doc asap.

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uk12345678 offline Verified User (2 months, 1 week) Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (14 minutes after post)

Try talking to a counsellor it may help… try eating chocolate (moderatly) it increases chemicals in your brain that want to make you live.

You got to realise parents do things for their children in order to protect them and keep them safe even though it may not feel like it at times.

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nweightman offline Verified User (2 months, 2 weeks) Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (16 minutes after post)

Please don’t take any drastic action. I am a lot older than you and i have been there and sometimes i feel the same - but every day brings its own challenges and with life we just have to get thru them. Its not going to be easy, i won’t lie to you - but ending it all is not the answer. I recently lost my friend to suicide and it hurts so much inside. Your family would be lost and so would your friends take it from someone who is living with the guilt of whether i should have done more or not - don’t throw away your life, it can turn around at a moments notice and turn into a dream come true.

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An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (1 day, 8 hours after post)

hello i understand what you’re going through. everything could be fine and look fine from the outside and actually not on the inside. i’ve actually experienced this for a long time. everyone thought i was happy and everything was actually going “well” with me but there’s just this emptiness inside and i was just trying to fake my own happiness and it worked only for a small moment. but i actually found an end of that tunnel. my friend told me that there’s a god-shaped hole inside of man’s heart that only a person god-sized can fill. i followed up with it and asked god to my life and i’ve never been happier ever since. realize this, there was a purpose of you to be created and it’s actually a relationship with a loving father in heaven. unless we find this, we’d be lost. but he sent his only son jesus so we can find him. he loves you and he’ll come when you ask. take care ok, we love you.

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princessaccaci offline Verified User (1 month, 4 weeks) Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 4 weeks ago (1 week, 5 days after post)

I go through the same thing. maybe if i killed myself maybe somebody would cry and im am sick and tired of being told everything is going to be alright when its not going to be. i used to think when i was younger that suicide should be aganist the law but now that im going through it its impossible not to think it. ive been suicidal for 4 years now. i dont what i should do and im not going to talk about my problems because im to ashamed.

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