I feel completely alone.

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I feel completely alone.

I’ve been depressed for some time, but I’m still able to function. I hold down two jobs, I’m a single mom and I love my son deeply and care for him quite well. I don’t have many friends but I’m close to my family. I’m single, a boy broke my heart a year ago and I guess I haven’t been able to be in a real relationship since. I try to date and meet new people, thinking that somehow things will just magically change when I find the right person to fill the hole I have in me. But it doesn’t, it just gets bigger. Therapy doesn’t work for me, my parents are psychologists and medications make things worse. I’ve tried faith but it always just feels like a lie I’m trying to tell myself to mend things for me. Men have told me they love me, it just makes me feel worse. My family loves me, I’m going to start school next year and will have the ability to start a career that I want to do. Things in my life are going so well, but on the inside I feel empty, like it’s all an act. Every smile cuts deeper into me. My naive side tells me the answer is some boy who will save me, make it all stop and make the boy that really hurt just fade into my past, but the rational part of me knows that probably won’t be the answer. I don’t have time to make friends happy so they’ll be real, I feel like those around me are there because they want something from me or because they have to be. I’m desperate.

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An Unknown Location | 1 month, 3 weeks ago (10 minutes after post)

if you go out, don’t go out looking for a boyfriend, go out looking for friends, some of the best relationships I’ve seen started as friendships and became love. Be very open minded, if you feel like you need a man, it might do some good to not have one just to help you see that you’re a strong, selfless, and independent person i can guess you are by reading your post. Its great that you’re working 2 jobs and taking care of your son on your own. just remember, no matter what, he’ll always love you, no matter what you do. I think you just need to remember that people do love you and care about you, your family & friends, and I’ve found some of my best friends at work and school. best of luck!!

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