Having a lot of sleep problems.
I’ve been having a lot of disturbed dreams and I keep waking up at about 4am + being unable to go back to sleep. The only thing the Dr can do for me is sleeping pills, which make me groggy and dopey during the day, (which is unacceptable bcz i’m at uni + need my mind to be sharp) and dont stop me from waking up @ 4am. I don’t have that much trouble actually falling asleep as i’m so damned tired at the end of the day - also, i get kinda anxious if i start to get really tired when there are friends still at my flat + i feel impatient for them to go- which is really bad cz having a good time with friends is the only thing that gives me a break from thinking about my ex (until he turns up in my dreams) It’s been going on for the last 6 weeks when my ex and I went on a break. Early in the mornings, I feel like it’s the loneliness actually waking me up. Part of me still cannot understand why he isnt there anymore. As soon as i wake up, I cant help thinking about him + getting upset because I’ll probably never see him again (the break up was all done over the phone + internet so i had no idea that the last time i saw him would be the last). What i really miss most is having someone there to cuddle me + atm 2 help me keep warm, as its very cold in the flat + although i sleep under a mountain of blankets, i still cant quite keep th cold out. Its always been really awkward hugging people. If one of my friends hugs me, i’ll hug them back to be polite, but it feels very uncomfortable. I dont know when its appropriate to hug other people–when they’re upset, i guess thats what they want, but i’m not really sure. With J., I could cuddle him any time i wanted + he’d do the same whenever i was in reaching distance, so i relied on im for all my affection + it wasnt awkward. Now he’s gone i feel this gaping hollowness that nobody else can fill, + it wakes me up at 4 in the morning when there’s no chance of hanging out with my housemates and taking my mind off him.
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