suicide help: yea well im back and nothing got better ….in fact i just had to start hiding from everybody what i feel like because they said im weak! - Help.com

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Sounds like your self-esteem is in the lows. Is that right?

Try this:

http://www.vitalaffirmations.com/

Well, now you have to make yourself # 1.

Don’t worry about what people tell you to do or how to be.

Now you have to do things that please you and make you happy.

It’s a matter of maybe starting over again with yourself as your own and ultimate project so you can have a better life, outlook, and bright future.

Are you doing anything to better yourself?

How old are you?

lostdeep wrote:
better myself like how….im trying to please everybody but im not hapy….yo be onest …i will most probably only be happy if im dead and thats now a fact that i saw this past 4 months!!!! i tried everything everyone told me but i am still the pits!!!!

Don’t think about pleasing people. It can be way too much of a burden to take responsibility of other people’s happiness when you haven’t even got your own! When you’re dead, it won’t solve anything because you will be…dead. It’s not worth it, don’t do it.

What was everyone telling you to do?

Nobody is going to make of you mate. 44 is pretty young. You can still start over or do new projects with your life. Don’t give up.

Do you love yourself?

How to Learn to Love Yourself

Some days, it’s impossible to look in the mirror and see anything that you like. It is so easy to start criticizing yourself. This negative thinking can affect your entire life. Start loving who you are with these steps.

Step 1

Go to a mirror and take a look at yourself. Find one thing that you like about yourself. It doesn’t matter what it is. Good skin, nice smile, great hair. It can even be something as tiny as great shaped eyebrows. Just find something that you can be positive about.

Step 2

Hold on to that one positive thing. The next time you think a negative thought about yourself, stop and remind yourself that you do have something about yourself that is great.

Step 3

Find something else about yourself that you like. It doesn’t matter what it is, it just has to be something positive. Again, use these positive things to cancel out the negative. It doesn’t have to be something positive physically either. Doing something good at work, a favor for a friend, handling a difficult situation well all counts as something positive.

Step 4

Treat yourself when you come up with something positive about yourself. Take time to pamper yourself or pick up a special treat just for yourself. Create a positive attitude in yourself.

Step 5

Continue to reinforce this positive thinking. Negative thoughts are as much of a habit as positive ones. So your creating a new way of thinking about yourself. Continue and repeat the steps of find something positive about yourself and reinforcing them when negative thoughts creep in.

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Try writing down all your positive things down. This will be a way of remind yourself of the positive on a bad day when you simply can remember the positive.

You should see a psychologist or other mental professional ASAP.