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Hi all, just when you think it can’t get any worse…
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I so want to believe that it will get better. I’m not asking for the world, I simply wanted to do an honest days work for an honest days pay, to be able to house my children and love them and encourage them to be the best they can be. I believe that you should only take what you need and give what you can….. god, how the hell did we get here? Was it bad luck, bad choices, it seems so pointless even to ask anyway. The saddest realization that I have come to is that ‘most people’ will not do the right thing for the sake of it, they have (so, it would seem) to be made to do the right thing… and I just don’t know how much longer I can keep being apart of this whole human thing… Sometimes I feel i’m just too darn sensitive and weak but then I think I’ve gotten this far and overcome some massive hurdles - there must be a reason I’m still here…..
My children are the only family I have and the bond we share is a truely magical gift, I’m so grateful for that, unfortunately their dad hates that and likes to kick me harder when I do manage get get myself up off my knees… then I stumble again… I’ve realized that when you bend over backwards to keep the peace, sometimes you break and if you do then the doubters and the kickers all get to say “see, I told you so”. I just can not relate nor comprehend the mind set of those types…… What joy do people get from being right at the expense of another…. when is enough, enough ? I’m tired, the children’s father has taken my kids, found a replacement mother and now I’ve become an inconvenience ….lol yep, I’m still laughing even through the copious tears that almost blind me …….. I just want to love them but I feel that sometimes thats not enough and I’m a stones through away from sleeping on the streets, my kids deserve better…. and although I know they won’t learn compassion from their father, he has a whole family to give them complete with grandparents and all…….. I’m still going but I am fast running out of hope, faith and all reason…. Thanks for listening and whilst I’m here maybe a word of advice to those of you who are trying to help someone else in need……….. Remember if you are going to offer a ‘hand up’ to someone - make sure that your foot is not on their head, and to those of you accepting advice - beware of taking advice from people who have an invested interest in you……
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