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I got drunk and don’t remember the whole night.
I was at a function last week where everyone was drinking and dancing and having a good time. I remember everything up until about an hour and a half before I left. The reason why I left the place was because I started to get emotional and I was crying for my husband to a friend of mine. Apparently I was telling her that I missed him and I wanted him there with me (he was in another state at that time). I cried all the way home to an older woman that I really don’t know all that well, but is in my circle of friends. I remember a flash where I asked her if I cheated on my husband and if I did anything wrong and she said, You were just dancing and having a good time!! I asked my friend the next morning what happened. She said she didn’t know what triggered my crying and that I was being totally appropriate, I wasn’t being sloppy and that I was just being sociable. She did say I was talking to a guy for a while, but she didn’t know what I said to him.
I also asked others if I made a fool of myself and they said I was fine and that some didn’t notice I was upset or when I left.
My question is, why am I still upset about this? Will I get over it? Why am I sort of still convinced that I cheated on my husband if everyone said I didn’t do anything wrong. Why am I afraid that people are going to talk about this until the end of time…even though people are saying it was no big deal? I am not a big drinker or partier and do have anxiety.
Maybe I just scared the daylights out of myself. I can tell you one thing…I will NEVER pick up another drink again. I learned my lesson well and can’t believe I put my marriage in jeopardy. I love my husband more than anything.
Thanks for reading. Your experiences/advice are welcome!!!
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