My Story.
Okay. So I went out with this guy about a year ago. His name was Anthony, and he was everything to me. I put everything into our relationship. He was my FIRST true love. My FIRST kiss. The FIRST person I went to when i was sad. The FIRST person I trusted with everything. We dated for four months. We went through alot together. Then a new girl moved to our school. And I was old news. He broke up with me because he thought he had a chance with her I guess. After we broke up, He changed completely. All he talked about was drugs, getting high, and going out with the new girl named Hannah. I changed to… I had never been sadder in my entrie life. I still had all my friends and all of his friends were still some of my best friends and they were with me throughout the break-up too, but I just wanted him. Then I Started figuring out other things from his (my) friends. Like, he lied to me. About pretty much everything. He still liked his Ex-Gf. He smoked pot. He lied about LOTS of stuff, and that hurt more than anything. I didn’t think it was possible to still love someone after they have hurt you that bad… but it is. I still had some stupid hope that he would want me back… I have never been in a relationship where they haven’t asked me back out. So i waited for months and months. And he never talked to me. Ever. I will always care about him, and i let him know that after we broke up. I emailed him on Myspace every now and then to check up on him to make sure he was okay… he never emailed me back. So, I had this best friend. He was funny and he sat with me through the whole break-up and everything. Then I started to have feelings for him. I knew he already liked me, because he had told me a long time before that. So, I let him know that i had feelings for him and he was happy of course. So, we started dating about five or six months after the break-up. Of course i still wasn’t over the break-up, i just thought that moving on was something that would help with the process of getting over it. I was happy with him and he treated me better then ever. I still wasn’t happy. I felt like something was missing.. ALL THE TIME. I couldn’t figure out what it was. So.. Now I’ve been dating him for almost five months now. But… This is where it gets difficult for me. I was staying after school last friday for our football game, and Anthony’s best friend (who is also one of my best friends) came up to me and said, “I need to talk to you.” and he pulled me aside and said, “Anthony said something about you at the pep rally today.” and i was kinda upset because all the stuff i’d heard him say about me has been mean and heartbreaking. and i said, “just tell me what it is. I can handle it.” and he said, “no, it’s not bad.” so i waited for a while and he finalyl decided to tell me. and he said, “At the pep rally today, anthony said that if he had the chance to date you again, he would.” and i freaked out. Because i really wanna date him again. but it would be stupid of me too. I’m still not over him, and i still love him. but he hurt me so bad! and the guy im dating now… i care about him alot, and i don’t wanna hurt him AT ALL. he’s a great guy… But i really want to go back out with Anthony. i won’t ever get over him….. And i don’t know why. WHAT SHOULD I DO?
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