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just thinking mostly. I started thinking about what would happen, who would care if I wasn’t here, and then I realized that I don’t have a life to lose
Hey pianoman, what counts as not having a life? This seems to have hit you all of a sudden. Did anything happen? Or are you just comparing your life to what other people have?
just thinking mostly. I started thinking about what would happen, who would care if I wasn’t here, and then I realized that I don’t have a life to lose
wow god knows I’ve thought that too. when i start thinking that way I try to think of the people I havent met yet. And how maybe even one more day will give me the wisdom I want so badly.
Welcome to the grand illusion
Come on in and see whats happening
Pay the price, get your tickets for the show
The stage is set, the band starts playing
Suddenly your heart is pounding
Wishing secretly you were a star.
But dont be fooled by the radio
The tv or the magazines
They show you photographs of how your life should be
But theyre just someone elses fantasy
So if you think your life is complete confusion
Because you never win the game
Just remember that its a grand illusion
And deep inside were all the same.
Were all the same…
So if you think your life is complete confusion
Because your neighbors got it made
Just remember that its a grand illusion
And deep inside were all the same.
Were all the same…
America spells competition, join us in our blind ambition
Get yourself a brand new motor car
Someday soon well stop to ponder what on earths this spell were under
We made the grade and still we wonder who the hell we are
Dragon_Lady wrote: Everyone who is breathing has a life. You’re just not happy with yours. What specifically do you feel needs to change?
I don’t have anything. I don’t have anything that I need, nothing to love, nothing to care about. Just about the only thing I care about is help.com, and that’s why I’m here right now. That’s another reason I’m stressed out is because I don’t know what I think needs to change. I don’t know what makes me happy
Sans wrote: Hey pianoman, what counts as not having a life? This seems to have hit you all of a sudden. Did anything happen? Or are you just comparing your life to what other people have?
I’m not sure what counts. I guess having a life means something that you can do that makes you happy, and I only have one of those things and it’s here, on help.com. I know it sounds stupid, but it’s true. Nothing happened, no. I just started thinking.
just thinking mostly. I started thinking about what would happen, who would care if I wasn’t here, and then I realized that I don’t have a life to lose
wow god knows I’ve thought that too. when i start thinking that way I try to think of the people I havent met yet. And how maybe even one more day will give me the wisdom I want so badly.
well that’s just the thing, I don’t know how to think about someone that I haven’t met or heard about yet. I don’t know wether someone will come along and make things better, or if I’ll just be like this forever.
Piano, we all sometimes get down and think we have nothing. Happened to me at times. But you do have something. You may disregard your friends here as not counting toward being a life to have. You want more. And it’s natural to want more. And you can have it. It’s all about directing your energies. Don’t focus them to the destructive. Do it to the productive.
Everyone has a life, and you can expand your life in any direction you want.
You’re a good man Piano, and I hate to see you down.
just thinking mostly. I started thinking about what would happen, who would care if I wasn’t here, and then I realized that I don’t have a life to lose
wow god knows I’ve thought that too. when i start thinking that way I try to think of the people I havent met yet. And how maybe even one more day will give me the wisdom I want so badly.
well that’s just the thing, I don’t know how to think about someone that I haven’t met or heard about yet. I don’t know wether someone will come along and make things better, or if I’ll just be like this forever.
well you cant rely on someone to come along. But I try to think about what if I am ment to meet that person, what if I can make a difference in something that is bigger then myself. It helps sometimes. Not always. But I try to look at the bigger picture too. Easier said then done sometimes
Ah man i’m sorry! I wish that i could take care of this stress for you by switching places. I have very positive thinking because of God. I wish i could put it in words… I can tell you that through any suffering you go through in your life, if you are still a good person you will be happy, eternally in the afterlife. Oh how i wish i could help. Don’t leave yourself, go to the tallest mountain and shout out what you are feeling! You can’t hold this back.
Commander Ikari wrote: Piano, we all sometimes get down and think we have nothing. Happened to me at times. But you do have something. You may disregard your friends here as not counting toward being a life to have. You want more. And it’s natural to want more. And you can have it. It’s all about directing your energies. Don’t focus them to the destructive. Do it to the productive.Everyone has a life, and you can expand your life in any direction you want.You’re a good man Piano, and I hate to see you down.
Thanks Ikari. And just so you know, I’m not saying that you guys don’t count toward a life, my friends here are a huge part of making me happy and giving me something to care about. I suppose that’s part of a life.
just thinking mostly. I started thinking about what would happen, who would care if I wasn’t here, and then I realized that I don’t have a life to lose
wow god knows I’ve thought that too. when i start thinking that way I try to think of the people I havent met yet. And how maybe even one more day will give me the wisdom I want so badly.
well that’s just the thing, I don’t know how to think about someone that I haven’t met or heard about yet. I don’t know wether someone will come along and make things better, or if I’ll just be like this forever.
well you cant rely on someone to come along. But I try to think about what if I am ment to meet that person, what if I can make a difference in something that is bigger then myself. It helps sometimes. Not always. But I try to look at the bigger picture too. Easier said then done sometimes
I try to do that too. I think about people that I could meet to make my life better, people that could help me out. And you’re right, it’s much easier said than done.
sideflip wrote: Ah man i’m sorry! I wish that i could take care of this stress for you by switching places. I have very positive thinking because of God. I wish i could put it in words… I can tell you that through any suffering you go through in your life, if you are still a good person you will be happy, eternally in the afterlife. Oh how i wish i could help. Don’t leave yourself, go to the tallest mountain and shout out what you are feeling! You can’t hold this back.
Thank you sideflip. Like, I said, I’m not a very religious person, but you’re right. I’m really holding this back, but I don’t know how to get it out there. I have trouble telling people like this, and we all know that it’s a lot easier to type than to speak.
Voicing your problems needs to be done eventually. You may think people will judge you negatively for it, or you’ll worry them, but someone needs to know.
I’m sort of rambling, sorry if this wastes space here.
Commander Ikari wrote: Voicing your problems needs to be done eventually. You may think people will judge you negatively for it, or you’ll worry them, but someone needs to know. I’m sort of rambling, sorry if this wastes space here.
its ok, you’re not rambling. And even if you were, it’s not like I’m gonna take you to court or anything for it. I know that I eventually need to speak up. I’ve tried to word it out and build the courage to bring it up to somebody that I know will understand, but I have problems talking to people, even the folks.
When I’m feeling low, listening to encouraging music or watching a positive video helps. There were years when I used to ask myself the same question you’re struggling with tonight. “Who would miss me if I died?” And I wasn’t all that impressed with the answer. I would rehearse in my mind the comments of people who learned of my death. That whole train of thought only leads to self-pity. There’s a big difference between having love and compassion for yourself, and wallowing in self-pity. The “who would miss me?” thought process is always a downer, never something that causes you to get up off our *** and make changes that will improve your future.
The truth is that your life up until this point may not have been that enjoyable, and you may not have made that many friends, but it’s not how you start a race that matters, it’s how you finish. I was a “late-bloomer”. I didn’t have a lot of friends and I was single for too many years. Now I have some good neighbors, some good friends, and a wonderful family. I’m 50 and just started back to school. That’s an age where most people are headed down a sharp decline. But I look forward to next week and next year as if it was the beginning.
I guess what I’m saying is, you don’t know what’s to come. There are good things ahead for you. If you live your life authentically, then friendships and family will follow. Success to me is measured in living life well, not in how many things you have or how popular you are.
Here are some videos that sometimes lift my spirits. You’ll want to right click and open them in a new window so that replies don’t stop the video.
sideflip wrote: Ah man i’m sorry! I wish that i could take care of this stress for you by switching places. I have very positive thinking because of God. I wish i could put it in words… I can tell you that through any suffering you go through in your life, if you are still a good person you will be happy, eternally in the afterlife. Oh how i wish i could help. Don’t leave yourself, go to the tallest mountain and shout out what you are feeling! You can’t hold this back.
Thank you sideflip. Like, I said, I’m not a very religious person, but you’re right. I’m really holding this back, but I don’t know how to get it out there. I have trouble telling people like this, and we all know that it’s a lot easier to type than to speak.
I give you high respect, i can understand how people think that way. I just always keep in mind a positive thought. There IS something beyond any situation, you will get through it. Rather than feeling the pain turn it into neutral, and don’t think about if or feel it. You can turn your life around with a simple change of thought, and how you do things.
Sans wrote: When I’m feeling low, listening to encouraging music or watching a positive video helps. There were years when I used to ask myself the same question you’re struggling with tonight. “Who would miss me if I died?” And I wasn’t all that impressed with the answer. I would rehearse in my mind the comments of people who learned of my death. That whole train of thought only leads to self-pity. There’s a big difference between having love and compassion for yourself, and wallowing in self-pity. The “who would miss me?” thought process is always a downer, never something that causes you to get up off our *** and make changes that will improve your future.
The truth is that your life up until this point may not have been that enjoyable, and you may not have made that many friends, but it’s not how you start a race that matters, it’s how you finish. I was a “late-bloomer”. I didn’t have a lot of friends and I was single for too many years. Now I have some good neighbors, some good friends, and a wonderful family. I’m 50 and just started back to school. That’s an age where most people are headed down a sharp decline. But I look forward to next week and next year as if it was the beginning.
I guess what I’m saying is, you don’t know what’s to come. There are good things ahead for you. If you live your life authentically, then friendships and family will follow. Success to me is measured in living life well, not in how many things you have or how popular you are.
Here are some videos that sometimes lift my spirits. You’ll want to right click and open them in a new window so that replies don’t stop the video.
thanks Sans. I know I have something that will happen to me in the future life, but I don’t know how to accept my life now. I too will probably be a late bloomer, for I’m socially retarded, and I’m doing school online still which doesn’t help at all.
I can’t watch videos right now, sorry :( youtube is disabled for me.
well, what Ikari said here is pretty much a future sight of what I was planning on saying.
(ikari! stop using the time machine! you will shatter the time- space continu-)
pianoman, you are a pretty cool dude and one of the few around here who does stuff anymore, seeing you down is pretty saddening and sobering to me, although it is good you arent just ignoring it or not telling us.
you do have the power to get what you want out of life, you really just need to push yourself around.
when you dont do anything with life it is like bumper cars but all of the cars are out of fuel.
sitting there on that scuffed floor, in the middle of a circus of massive proportions.
so what do we do? we get out and we push them, fill them with fuel and hit the start button.
Once we get going we can run into each other and crash and slide around on that scuffed up floor, and we can bump into those with a little less fuel and cause them to slide around and enjoy themselves more.
we all slide around and crash and veer off course, ending up somewhere completely new, or back where we started when the bell rings and the big man in the red and white striped shirt tells us to get off and let new people get on.
cause only when people collide does life begin to be worth living.
would YOU pay to play stationary bumper cars?
I hope not. I imagine it would be boring and futile.
maybe you just need to refill your bumper car?
Commander Ikari wrote: You can do it gradually. I used to pretend I was something I wasn’t at home, and eventually said **** it and just am what I am.
yea, I’m trying to ease into it. How did people react to that? because that’s what’s scaring me the most about that situation is I’m not sure how people are going to feel about me afterward.
I think we all feel a little lost sometimes and don’t really know what we want, what makes us happy. I started focusing on small things at a time. Sounds silly, but things like my favorite cereal in the morning and a cup of coffee.
THE INTERNET wrote: well, what Ikari said here is pretty much a future sight of what I was planning on saying.(ikari! stop using the time machine! you will shatter the time- space continu-)pianoman, you are a pretty cool dude and one of the few around here who does stuff anymore, seeing you down is pretty saddening and sobering to me, although it is good you arent just ignoring it or not telling us. you do have the power to get what you want out of life, you really just need to push yourself around. when you dont do anything with life it is like bumper cars but all of the cars are out of fuel.sitting there on that scuffed floor, in the middle of a circus of massive proportions.so what do we do? we get out and we push them, fill them with fuel and hit the start button.Once we get going we can run into each other and crash and slide around on that scuffed up floor, and we can bump into those with a little less fuel and cause them to slide around and enjoy themselves more.we all slide around and crash and veer off course, ending up somewhere completely new, or back where we started when the bell rings and the big man in the red and white striped shirt tells us to get off and let new people get on.cause only when people collide does life begin to be worth living.would YOU pay to play stationary bumper cars?I hope not. I imagine it would be boring and futile.maybe you just need to refill your bumper car?
Ikari will never cease to use the space time continuim (how the hell do you spell that? heh)
But thanks Alpha. I really do just need to deal with these things I suppose, because I really haven’t. I’ve been the car in the middle that doesn’t bother to refuel and all of the other kids bump into while the kid in the middle doesn’t seem to care.
THE INTERNET wrote: well, what Ikari said here is pretty much a future sight of what I was planning on saying.(ikari! stop using the time machine! you will shatter the time- space continu-)pianoman, you are a pretty cool dude and one of the few around here who does stuff anymore, seeing you down is pretty saddening and sobering to me, although it is good you arent just ignoring it or not telling us. you do have the power to get what you want out of life, you really just need to push yourself around. when you dont do anything with life it is like bumper cars but all of the cars are out of fuel.sitting there on that scuffed floor, in the middle of a circus of massive proportions.so what do we do? we get out and we push them, fill them with fuel and hit the start button.Once we get going we can run into each other and crash and slide around on that scuffed up floor, and we can bump into those with a little less fuel and cause them to slide around and enjoy themselves more.we all slide around and crash and veer off course, ending up somewhere completely new, or back where we started when the bell rings and the big man in the red and white striped shirt tells us to get off and let new people get on.cause only when people collide does life begin to be worth living.would YOU pay to play stationary bumper cars?I hope not. I imagine it would be boring and futile.maybe you just need to refill your bumper car?
Ikari will never cease to use the space time continuim (how the hell do you spell that? heh)
But thanks Alpha. I really do just need to deal with these things I suppose, because I really haven’t. I’ve been the car in the middle that doesn’t bother to refuel and all of the other kids bump into while the kid in the middle doesn’t seem to care.
well you should start caring, but in a good way.
those pushers can help you go new places and build up speed
THE INTERNET wrote: well, what Ikari said here is pretty much a future sight of what I was planning on saying.(ikari! stop using the time machine! you will shatter the time- space continu-)pianoman, you are a pretty cool dude and one of the few around here who does stuff anymore, seeing you down is pretty saddening and sobering to me, although it is good you arent just ignoring it or not telling us. you do have the power to get what you want out of life, you really just need to push yourself around. when you dont do anything with life it is like bumper cars but all of the cars are out of fuel.sitting there on that scuffed floor, in the middle of a circus of massive proportions.so what do we do? we get out and we push them, fill them with fuel and hit the start button.Once we get going we can run into each other and crash and slide around on that scuffed up floor, and we can bump into those with a little less fuel and cause them to slide around and enjoy themselves more.we all slide around and crash and veer off course, ending up somewhere completely new, or back where we started when the bell rings and the big man in the red and white striped shirt tells us to get off and let new people get on.cause only when people collide does life begin to be worth living.would YOU pay to play stationary bumper cars?I hope not. I imagine it would be boring and futile.maybe you just need to refill your bumper car?
Ikari will never cease to use the space time continuim (how the hell do you spell that? heh)But thanks Alpha. I really do just need to deal with these things I suppose, because I really haven’t. I’ve been the car in the middle that doesn’t bother to refuel and all of the other kids bump into while the kid in the middle doesn’t seem to care.
well you should start caring, but in a good way.those pushers can help you go new places and build up speed
Yes I should. I really do care, it’s just that I don’t know what to care about.
Dude, your life is worth a lot. Don’t make a mess of it. Pray, listen to music, get it back on track. You’re too nice a person to hurt yourself, and honestly you shouldn’t do it.
Rawr!! Don’t feel so bad… I think your right by tomorrow you will see things differently. I know your problems wont go away just like that. You seem to have so much more than you think, and you see the things you don’t have as a negative, where really if you think about it can be seen as a positive. Chin up!!
if i lived around you id take you out to coffee and id get the girly drink from starbucks thats pink. sadly we dont, but ill be praying for god to put someone in your life who will. hang in there bub, dont give up.
“I don’t have anything that I need, nothing to love, nothing to care about. Just about the only thing I care about is help.com, and that’s why I’m here right now. That’s another reason I’m stressed out is because I don’t know what I think needs to change. I don’t know what makes me happy”
You should try loving yourself! that’s the first thing that you should love. Once you’ve mastered that, you will have soooo much to love. You will have soo much love to give. And one day a worthy and deserving person will come along, and you can share the love with them. Remember, once you love yourself, that’s all that you will need to make you happy. Happiness comes from the inside, you will be fulfilled and won’t feel like you need something on the outside to make you happy on the inside. I was once like you, But i realized that I had a choice. Everyone does. I could have either stayed in the role of the victim, because it’s very comfortable there i know……or I could go on living and actually make the best out of it! I chose that path. Sprituality worked for me. I’m not religious but I am spiritual. I learned to love myself, and after that I couldn’t even think negative thoughts that would hurt me, because i love myself too much to do that to me. Please if you need any help, let me help you. Message me anytime. God bless.
thegodmothe wrote: “I don’t have anything that I need, nothing to love, nothing to care about. Just about the only thing I care about is help.com, and that’s why I’m here right now. That’s another reason I’m stressed out is because I don’t know what I think needs to change. I don’t know what makes me happy”
You should try loving yourself! that’s the first thing that you should love. Once you’ve mastered that, you will have soooo much to love. You will have soo much love to give. And one day a worthy and deserving person will come along, and you can share the love with them. Remember, once you love yourself, that’s all that you will need to make you happy. Happiness comes from the inside, you will be fulfilled and won’t feel like you need something on the outside to make you happy on the inside. I was once like you, But i realized that I had a choice. Everyone does. I could have either stayed in the role of the victim, because it’s very comfortable there i know……or I could go on living and actually make the best out of it! I chose that path. Sprituality worked for me. I’m not religious but I am spiritual. I learned to love myself, and after that I couldn’t even think negative thoughts that would hurt me, because i love myself too much to do that to me. Please if you need any help, let me help you. Message me anytime. God bless.
thanks. I have trouble loving myself because I have self esteem issues, but I now know that I was wrong to say that I had nothing to live for. Seeing what people do here, what lengths they go to to comfort one person that they don’t need to care about, but choose to. It changes my perspective on what needs to be done. I need to get out and try, because if I just give up, I’m never going to achieve anything.
I’m going to close this post now because it’s only taking up the most popular post spot. Thanks again everybody!
Well aren’t I in a pickle. I’m sitting here with tears in my eyes and a knife by my side because life just hit me as hard as it could and I just realized that there’s nothing in my life anymore.
The knife has injured me but nothing more, so don’t worry about that but I really wish I had the guts to use it for something better. I’m just hoping that something will stop all of this ****, because I don’t know how much longer I can take it. It’s been a while since I’ve felt like this, but I suppose it’s never too late to feel bad about something.
Help? thanks…
Cell
Anonymous
mz.mo
Dragon_Lady
Sans
Commander Ikari
sideflip
THE INTERNET
goodwind
vince.sinclai
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