Well I don’t really know how to put this, but I think I’m going through depression. - Help.com

well… it doesn’t really sound like clinical depression, but you’d have to see a psychiatrist or psychologist for that diagnosis. Adolescents is a very difficult time period. I know teenagers hear that all the time, and it’s solves very little. The best we can do is talk about issues as they occur, and try to work them out - or at least build good coping mechanisms. Our parents are not always the best at seeing things because they are too close to things… they also can give more or less credit to their teenage kids they the kids deserve. If every you want to talk, please give me a shout anytime.

Bright blessings ~ Richard

HI,

seems like there is “us” and “them”. Us who see too much, hear too much and ask too many questions and Them who seem to get by with life itself really well, but are neither capable of real and deep feelings (human feelings), nor are driven by the need to decipher reality, to try to understand and experience things on a fundamental level. I should say it seems we might be too sensitive for this world, aren´t we?

This might or might nor make any kind of sense to you.

It’s not a matter of being over sensitive. I’ve been depressed for three goddamn years and only not it’s starting to finally take it’s toll on me. All I ever wanted was something every decent human being deserves, a chance. Am I being unreasonable?

no… you are not unreasonable. Can you tell me what you do have? What are you grateful for?

I´m sorry if I have upset you. It seems I´m not a good helper on this site.

All I got is a family that loves me but uses me as a built in baby sitter a lot, and I get decent grades, and I write okay as a writer, but nothing means anything if you don’t have that special individual to share it with.

Do you believe that you will find that someone at some point in the future? (I sound like a robot.)

I don’t know to be honest. If I got actually a chance, I will. But at times I wonder if God put me here to be miserable.

How do you define chance?

God did not put anyone here to be miserable… God, like any loving father or mother wants to see his children happy. Looking for love is a double edged sword…sometimes you find it, but mostly you don’t. We first have to love ourselves before we be truly loved by another. That might sound trite, but it’s very true.

But how do I start? It’s difficult to do anything in this state of sadness.

So the sadness is paralyzing you to act at all?

No, t he sadness is slowly sapping any will i have to go on. I used to be an angry person with lots fight in him. Now Im a suttle one, brought down by depression who cant seem to have any fight to do anything.

Does it matter to you, if the depression wins? I mean, do you still care about life enough to keep going, in the hope, that maybe next month, or next year things might be brightening up?

It’s been three years, I doubt its going away anytime soon

Will you consider getting professional help?

I think I want to. I’ve been thinking about it for a while, but I don’t want them to put the blame on me. It’s not my fault nobody cuts me break.

I don´t think a professional psychologist would blame you for anything. Are you old enough to get help yourself, or are your parents required to arrange this for you? I don´t know much about the law in your country.

Well Im American. But my parents can set something up. I wouldn’t know how to start anyway.

Listen, it´s getting really late here. If you want to talk another time, I will be there and listen to you. But this site is painfully slow, so… I don´t know. Reply if you want, I will stay around for another while.

Idk what else is there to say. Ill try and get help and see what happens.

Good. I wish you all the best for your life and your future, cause you have one.

Thanks