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Ugh.

This month (or year?) has been miserable.

So I’ll start at the beginning. I’m in a pretty rigorous schooling program that requires I work hard. I have little time. So I don’t do drama. EVER. I hate it. So much. Honestly, I don’t pay much attention to my friends. I’m busy thinking about my rooster, and if I’m going to have to get rid of him, if the horses are going to be okay this winter with the grass so green this summer, and my grades. This is what is going through my mind constantly.
I’m not thinking about boys. I view dating as getting to know someone you might want to spend the rest of your life with. I don’t want to marry out of high school. And I can get to know boys just as friends. I’ve dated, and I’m tired of all the drama that comes with it. At my age, people are always changing and a relationship can’t last if the two people’s interests are never the same at all. My interests are the same, horses, chickens, grades, future. So I don’t notice when things start going around about me. I don’t really care either.
Boys are the worst planners! His sister comes up and tells me that this guy wants to ask me to homecoming and is too terrified to ask me himself. I really didn’t want to go to homecoming. But I said I would since my parents told me I had to go to at least one high school dance. High school dances? Not my thing. Barn dances, much more. Later that evening I receive a text message asking me to go to homecoming with ANOTHER boy. Keep in mind, I find boys immature and annoying. They get their feelings hurt when you would rather go see your horse than go to a movie to make out. (I really don’t see a competition there, the horse is going to win out every time.) I explain to him I can’t since I already told the other boy’s sister I would go with her brother once he asked me. I’ve had a miserable day. So I’m in a pretty foul mood. I’ve known this kid for several years and no one thought to tell me he wanted to go out with me? I would have shot down that idea fast. I don’t like dating.
So eventually I go through all that. I hate it when boys ask you out via some middle man (a sister or a CELL PHONE). I have to go dress shopping. I HATE shopping. I shop at tractor Supply, Gander Mountain, Cabela’s… Those types of stores. I buy a dress second night out. Not too bad.
Then I find out I was supposed to say no to the first boy. The friend of my friend desperately wanted to ask my date out but he had no interest in her. So then everyone was effectively upset with me. Said previous friend I’m upset with for lying to me. So I haven’t spoken to her in about 6 weeks, and she hasn’t tried to talk to me about it so I know she doesn’t really care. So that’s a problem. Then I eventually go to homecoming after not filling out any of the traditions because, no, I did not know about them. NO ONE told me. The dance was okay, but a rave. Everyone was grinding and there wasn’t one slow song. I can line dance and some ball room dance… Not much else. It wasn’t that good of a night.
Then my friend broke up with his long time girl friend, next day he’s coming on to me. I don’t like boys. I don’t want to date boys. Why are they all coming on to me now? I don’t want them. My date to homecoming follows me around like a puppy too. I can’t get rid of him.
So I really feel like everyone hates me. I haven’t changed, yet all these guys won’t leave me alone. I’m really busy with school work and my animals. My parents won’t leave me alone right now. And I’m just overwhelmed and tired.
Thanks for reading. I know its long.

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