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oh..its not really a question.. i just need someone to be here for a minute. that sounds sad and desperate i know, but im always the one listening. can you listen? if not then just tell me something or anything good please.

ha. id like to sound really quick witted and say i know who that is, but i dont.
thanks?

i didnt know who that was that said that. and i was saying “thanks?” as in im not sure if that helped but thanks for the input.

oh. im not religous. and i dont know exactly how to use this site. i just typed in help on google and this came up. still up for talking on here though?

ahh. i did that too. just everyone i was trying to learn from gave me the wrong impression of what i should be there for. so i claimed atheism. and i dont want an arguement bc ill respect your beliefs as long as you do so with mine. yeah….religious talk…lets talk about anything else. :)

yeah..its just a little break down i couldnt sleep off. i dont even feel the need to talk about it bc im not the complaint-conversationalist. you know the people who have nothing to talk about other than their problems or how cold it is in the room or how they dont like the paint on the walls. i just like that you replied. why dont you tell me your typical day? or if that sounds too creepy then tell me what why your here so late

haha. yeah, your a crazy. but hey at least your not the one up at 1 in the morning asking for help from the computer bc you dont feel like you know anyone who is the right person to talk to when you need help. and wow. do you need help? haha. you can unload anything on me. we dont have any attachments or really anything but this conversation on the computer right now. so feel free to speak of anything. ill start. im alex and i should be asleep bc i have school tomorrow but im no longer going bc i have caught a cold and so i have stayed at home all day today. and that is why i was upset. just too much time to think to myself. tomorrow or techinically today, im going to wait for my friend to get home from school so we can go and see where the wild things are. and sorry if it takes a while to reply but dont waorry im not going anywhere.

thats good your older. i dont really care to get along with or understand any of the kids my age. hence me feeling like i cant talk to them. what you get your masters for? and id like to tell you dont worry about one interview but im the same way. i cant even apply anywhere bc im afraid of the rejection ill most likely get. and i dont care how old you are. your another person who needs some talking to. and personally i agree with the distraction theory. thats why im not talking about my problems. but lets keep this distraction going for the time being. you seem a little insecure. dont take that in the wrong way but try and appreciate me for being honest. ill tell you something wrong with me to even it out i suppose. im a little too into myself. not in the cocky way but more of a selfish feel. how do i explain…? i prefer hanging out with myself than anyone else? ha. i guess im a loner, but a proud one. even though im not really ever alone, well not as much as id like to be anyways.

dang. 11 siblings? i got 3 and we are all girls. so i dont know why im not too emotional or clingy like most girls my age. and i like that you mentioned your mom. i guess thats as much woman emotion you’ll get out of me. other than animals, i melt for them too. and by never alone, i just meant friends and family. i like that they feel like im the one to come to with their problems. i can help or at least try to as well. its just i care about these people and lately its problems ive never really dealt with. and today or yesterday i was at home thinking about their problems and how it hurts me to hear these things happening to them. but i also feel bad bc i dont want to deal with them. but i cant tell them i dont care to hear their problems or be there for them while they are having them. that sounds bad. i promise im still a good person. in fact my saying is “its not hard to be a good person”, im sure i make that seem apparent with my selfish writing. but please tell me i can talk to you another time bc i need sleep. and im leaving for a selfish reason once again. when can i talk to you again? you havent scared me away and i hope i havent you in return.