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I am so frustrated right now.
I have been making payments on a student loan, because duh I want to pay it off. They’ve lost their records and claim I’ve made no payment, though I have records. Sure, eventually I’ll get the right person on the phone or physically travel to the University with my records and show them, but for now it’s dragging down my credit score and pissing me off. My landlord recently died and the heirs are liquidating the assets and selling the house I live in. My mom is struggling with breast cancer, she lives with me. In August my father in law died. My husband has a huge 25,000 medical bill that is in collections and hurting us. I can’t find a better job to save my life and I work for peanuts at a freakin laundromat. Why does the world suck so much? Why has our culture set up all of these ridiculous pit falls and traps to mess with people and make it even harder? Has the world gone mad? Has it always been that way and I’m the one who is crazy? I feel like I’m on the brink of a nervous breakdown as there are many more things going awry in my life that I have no control over. I have nobody to talk to about it, there seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel, and I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to go crazy. I am a great person, I should have a way better job that pays enough to get by - and that I actually enjoy getting up to go to every morning. My family should have a home that we are safe in, a home that isn’t going to boot us out. Why does it have to be this way and what is wrong with society? Or me? I wish the stress would go away. I should be able to do well, I’m friendly, I’m intellegent, I’m hardworking. I can’t even keep a good roof over my family’s heads, I can’t make enough to pay down the debt. I am so frustrated I could scream, and I don’t want to look sad all the time. That is one thing the world could use a great deal less of - Sadness. Any ideas? Doubtful, I just wanted to cry to somebody so I’ll do it anonymously online.
Mother, do you think they’ll drop the bomb?
Mother, do you think they’ll like this song?
Mother, do you think they’ll try to break my balls?
Mother, should I build the wall?
Mother, should I run for President?
Mother, should I trust the government?
Mother, will they put me in the firing line?
Is it just a waste of time?
Hush now baby, baby, don’t you cry
Momma’s gonna make all of your nightmares come true
Momma’s gonna put all of her fears into you
Momma’s gonna keep you right here under her wing
She won’t let you fly, but she might let you sing
Momma’s will keep Baby cozy and warm
Oooo Babe
Oooo Babe
Ooo Babe, of course Momma’s gonna help build the wall
Mother, do you think she’s good enough
For me?
Mother, do you think she’s dangerous
To me?
Mother will she tear your little boy apart?
Mother, will she break my heart?
Hush now baby, baby, don’t you cry
Momma’s gonna check out all your girlfriends for you
Momma won’t let anyone dirty get through
Momma’s gonna wait up until you get in
Momma will always find out where you’ve been
Momma’s gonna keep Baby healthy and clean
Oooo Babe
Oooo Babe
Ooo Babe, you’ll always be Baby to me
Mother, did it need to be so high?
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