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I sit in solitude, listening to the angriest music i have trying to imagine peace and tranquility when all i feel is hate and anger.

I cant do a **** thing right in my life without pissing off someone..

And if this is the case, then whats the point in foraging on….

If i do so much to put you all off, why the hell do you keep trying to keep me alive?

Life is one **** expirience after another…. De profundus clamo ad te dominae…….

I try and be so many things for you all….

A sister…a daughter…a friend….a lover….a mistress….so many hats ive lost count, and lost track of who i am….

I remember how it felt to be me, just not what i did to feel that way…..

To NATHAN: You affected me in a way that i can never NEVER get rid of, no matter how i try you haunt my brain and suffocate my soul….

To KIMMI: Im a **** sister… I know…..Isnt it sad when we can stand back and see it from the ones we loves perspective…Ill never be what you need in a sister and i continue to fail as i try…..

To MEL: so much for staying in contact…. I thought i had your support and you know you had mine….

To KYLE: so just becuase im not happy with you, means i dont deserve happiness?

To MATTY: I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU FOR ABANDONING ME, I HATE YOU FOR MAKING ME LOVE YOU, I HATE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.

To DAD: I suck as a daughter dont i? You wish i could be more like Kimmi every time you see me. Well im not her…. I cant do things the way she can….

To ALI: I fail….Once again i fail to be there when you have something to talk about…..

To ALL MY HIGH SCHOOL FRIENDS: You’ve left my life but never my mind. Not a day goes by that i dont wish to reind the clock and be with you again…. Im sorry i went and made a mess of my life, causing all of you to steer clear….

To YOU: by readin this not you have now unlock the door to my very inner feelings. Do with them as you please. Which is most likely to discard them….as will i….

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An Unknown Location | 1 month ago (35 minutes after post)

Well, I’ve no idea who you are or those people you’re ranting about, but you get applause for the Latin. I like you.

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Sir Tannen offline Verified User (1 year, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 138 #
Emeryville, CA, US | 1 month ago (1 hour, 13 minutes after post)

This person seems rather cool yet a tad depressing.

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An Unknown Location | 1 month ago (1 hour, 13 minutes after post)

Sorry but we know not of what you speak…. shorter and more attuned to an audience who is not familiar with your friends, please.

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1 month ago (2 hours, 58 minutes after post)

hi. I can understand your struggle. I fell into a very deep depression for years when i was in my early 20s and it seemed really hard to even think of hope or peace. Literally, I was dragging myself every day just to do my daily chorus. However, no matter what happens, dont believe that you’re alone. you are so loved by the creator. there’s even a verse in psalm that although your mom forgets about you, your father in heaven wont. i believe that there’s a hole in every man’s heart that only christ can fill. i was so empty, disoriented and confused. 2 years ago until i met god. when that happened, everything just became make sense, on why on earth you’re here on earth, on why you were created, etc. and you’ll find a purpose in relationship with the loving father. what you need is his love to fill you up like a coke in a desert… (weird parable isnt it?)- matt11:28. check this out: needhim.org

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An Unknown Location | 1 month ago (5 hours, 39 minutes after post)

omg, that was f***ckingEloquent!!!!!!!!! seriously, now go beat thecrapout of someone and lets go have drinks ;p

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