life help: The courage to proceed when you know you can barely function. - Help.com

I am there. Everything I’ve done these past few years are on the floor like dirty clothes. I will admit I haven’t known how to keep going as the sense has gotten overwhelming. But I am changing things, and the first step took place last week when I made a decision. It took a lot of courage for me to take the next step in my life, but I set up for it last week. It seems that I am no longer who I was, and since that is the case, I need to redefine that. Starting over with a blank canvas so to speak - and my art taught me how to do that. I just made a mark on this new canvas of a work to come. I’m terrified, and about every hour or so I get scared and think I’m making a mistake. And I’ve been stuck in a really bad emotional place for about six years. But when everything you try falls away, and when everything you think you knew falls away, and every attempt to plan your life the way you thought it would be falls away - I had to face the truth. I’m taking the chance that something is coming, and I’m taking one step, a step that’s manageable. The wall I saw was a high as the sky and as wide as I could see, and I’m taking a chance, a step to see if there is anything I can do to change that wall. You’re not alone. I could barely get out of bed, could barely move, could barely see the sky past the wall. But I’m taking a new step. We can do it. Even just one little step.