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Poem: Mercy.

As usual this poem will be up for about a day, at most. The reason for this has been explained in earlier posts of me. In this poem i’m not requesting any pity / compassion, for i don’t believe i deserve any. This is my life i’ve allowed people to ruin, and now it’s me that’ll have to rebuild it or in the worst case pull the plug, but i have no intetions of doing that at this point.

Mercy.

Rage, pain, the grasp of desperation.
A stranglehold of the mind, stuck.
Alone fearful, looking up. Looking away.
Struck with the weight, curse of desolation.
Feels like I’m falling, failing.

Love for someone unknown tearing inside.
Clawing a way out, stuck in the walls of my skin
Jailed in the confines of my heart my soul.
Tired from the fights, tears alone at night.
Releasing the pain, agony freed.

Why am I running, the past is long away.
Haunted by memories, broken by dreams.
Cold sweat running down my face.
The gift of hope, is all which for I pray,
Flee, your failures they chase you.

Tired of hating, Damning the world around me.
Blinded to all good, nothing left to keep.
Selfish and full of regrets, lost in thoughts
Do I give in to it all, or fight to be free.
Chains broken, release the fiend.

Not even black, The void as my heart.
A torrent of negativity, blocking me.
Not a wall, but a fortress around self.
Will withering, the rage tears me apart.
Starved of life, heart fallen.

Ugly and alone, in my eyes that burn.
With a past that was wasted now gone.
Years of my life lost to senseless despair.
Silent, I question if the tides will turn.
Silent, I ask myself for mercy.

Legion.