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i have this problem for so long and i thought i had it but it came back.

i can be realy arrogant and it makes me feel happy and alive.
because i feel i missed out on allot of things i tend to forget everything around me and try to keep it that way so i can continue being happy.

i also look for love around me because i need help with allot of things.
it’s so hard to look through myself and see what i can and cannot do.
so i don’t see where i need help and who i can trust.

what i did now is i lied and hide the fact that i feel horrible and hardly eat and ignore my body and my needs.
try to live on the edge.
i have given my body such a hard time that i degenerated into being insensitive and paranoid.
The truth is that i have a real hard time coping.
when people help me i also tend to feel guilty.

i feel that at one point i am being helped and the next i am hopping along my path like nothing happened and it gives people a real hard time.
and i tend to end up having allot of people disliking me.
i don’t know what to do about this.

what i want is to find a balance between being helped,helping others and helping myself.

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kanneybby offline Verified User (1 year, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Sacramento, CA, US | 3 weeks, 6 days ago (3 minutes after post)

don’t bottle up those feelings that you have first.
in order to help others you have to learn to help yourself first.

as long as you have someone you can talk to about whatever it is that’s bother you, then that’s good. you need an outlet beyondddd just hiding your feelings.

you have to take care of yourself. it’s like the saying that you have to love yourself before you love others. it’s true.

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Matthijs offline Verified User (3 weeks, 6 days) Shouts: 2 #
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thank you

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kanneybby offline Verified User (1 year, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Sacramento, CA, US | 3 weeks, 5 days ago (23 minutes after post)

i hope everything works out for you. if not .. then .. i’ll be here for you. :)

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