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I’ve never felt so angry before ever. I feel so betrayed and used right now. I’m close to giving up on everyone. Can anyone calm my fears of being alone? I don’t know what to do anymore im so confused and hurt. Please someone just talk to me. I need someone who knows what it feels like to be going through this. Thanks.

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J.N Location unknown 538 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 month ago (4 minutes after post)

Hi, ill talk to you.
Do you want to elaberate on what the problem is?

Help me with: How is an ex-husband like an inflamed appendix?

Anonymous #
1 month ago (6 minutes after post)

hi. how was your day? my day was boring…I’m kinda lonely too.

XXashXX 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 month ago (15 minutes after post)

I just don’t know what to do. I don’t know who to trust to go to. I have a thousand friends but I don’t want them to lose me for thinking im crazy. Ive had so many people turn their back on me when I needed them the most. I just need a shoulder to cry on right now. No one sees the hurt that I have inside.

J.N Not Lost - Found wrote:
Hi, ill talk to you.
Do you want to elaberate on what the problem is?

XXashXX 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 month ago (16 minutes after post)

My day was alright I guess.

Anonymous wrote:
hi. how was your day? my day was boring…I’m kinda lonely too.

Anonymous #
1 month ago (22 minutes after post)

don’t die inside. I’m here. whats your favorite color? what did you eat for breakfast?

XXashXX 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 month ago (23 minutes after post)

I died inside a long time ago. No one gets how hurt I am.

Anonymous wrote:
don’t die inside. I’m here. whats your favorite color? what did you eat for breakfast?

Anonymous #
1 month ago (31 minutes after post)

everyone gets hurt everyone dies inside someone on this earth has felt the same way

XXashXX 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 month ago (36 minutes after post)

I know I just needed to get this out.

Anonymous wrote:
everyone gets hurt everyone dies inside someone on this earth has felt the same way

Anonymous #
1 month ago (41 minutes after post)

then get it out. it feels better when i do. i just cry and then my head hurts and then i laugh at myself because i did it to myself and then i fall alseep. everything gets better when i wake up. like a new day.

Anonymous #
1 month ago (41 minutes after post)

whats actually wrong?
if we know whats going on then someone whos een through whatever it is can talk to you about it and let you get it all out

XXashXX 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 month ago (50 minutes after post)

Just scared of screwing up again. My mom is already dissapointed in me. I feel like a screw up and im close to giving up and letting whatever happens happen. Tired of being hurt by everyone. I want to let someone help me but I don’t know how. I’ve always helped myself but this time I just need my friends. The problem is my mind doesnt want to let them in.

Anonymous wrote:
whats actually wrong?
if we know whats going on then someone whos een through whatever it is can talk to you about it and let you get it all out

Anonymous #
1 month ago (1 hour, 9 minutes after post)

well your doing a good job looking for help here, its good cause you can say whatever and no one knows you to worry about them knowing

so how do you feel you screwed up and your mother’s disappointed in you

Anonymous #
1 month ago (1 hour, 16 minutes after post)

sometimes its hard telling ppl you just close up

XXashXX 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 month ago (19 hours, 10 minutes after post)

Because I made a lot of mistakes. She told me herself that she was dissapointed in me. I don’t feel accepted anymore. I was talking to this guy and he was the first guy that I ever trusted completley we never met we just talked and my friend who got us talking would tell him hi for me and stuff. We never got to meet and I just found out that he’s going out with another girl at their work. I knew that if I never met him then I was screwed. He was the only guy that has ever told me that I was pretty and not to think anything different. Ever since we quit talking I havent felt better at all Ive only felt worse and there’s nothing that I can do about it. My friend said that she can tell that it hurts me but there’s nothing that can be nothing done for me. No one knows but all I want is someone to love me for who I am not how I look. Im so sick of not being approved of by anyone. Im beggining to wonder if I was even meant to find someone to love. If I tell someone that then they just say I know. When really I want to rip my heart out and not feel anymore pain. I just wish I could find someone who actually saw my pain. As for my friends I look at them and everyday I want to just break down and cry and just let everything out but im afraid of losing them. They mean the world to me.

Anonymous wrote:
well your doing a good job looking for help here, its good cause you can say whatever and no one knows you to worry about them knowing

so how do you feel you screwed up and your mother’s disappointed in you

J.N Location unknown 538 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 month ago (19 hours, 23 minutes after post)

You got hurt by a guy that did not deserve your affection, its happened to most of us, yes it hurts but it doesnt hurt forever, you will find the person you are looking for, i think you are making yourself feel worse by dwelling on the fact that you have not found him yet, it takes time, we have to kiss a lot of frog’s before we find a prince, im guessing you are still young? You don’t need to rush it, it will happen in time, why don’t you just enjoy your youth now before you settle down.
As for your mum, if she said it in the heat of an arguement or when tensions & emotions were high, the chances are she did not mean it, we all feel that we let out families down sometimes, truth is, our families are a lot more tollerant than we think they are, it takes a lot to truly disapoint them.