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I don’t understand why it hurts so much…
I am panicky all the time and I keep thinking everyone hates me…I know there is no reason for me to think that I am a bad person, who doesnt deserve anything but pain and punishment…but somehow its just true…and it makes me a horrible excuse for a human being to not want that punisment…whether I deserve it or not…I know i deserve this constant misery I live in but i cant stand it anymore…Forgive me for the overused phrase, but i really do feel like im suffocating…everything hurts…every smile, step and breath feels like it takes just too much energy and i must soon just collapse under the strain…I am really struggling and i dont know what to do.
I dont necessarily expect anyone to comment…I just needed to somehow get out a fraction of what I am feeling so that maybe I can understand it or just lessen it a little…
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sounds like a touch of paranoia mixed in with a dash of anxiety disorder sprinkled heavily with some depression.
to therapy with you, plz.
I understand. I felt that way 4 nights ago… I started not cutting myself… just adding etches if you would on my shoulder… just so the pain in my head would be focused on my shoulder. I’m telling you know… don’t do that. It hurts. And it’s not fun.
What I’m doing now is seeking help here just like you. I know it’s not much… but… I know how you feel, like the world is spinning everything went wrong, your dreams are far away, and it’s just painful. I know.
I know you we’re expecting anyone to comment… but just to let you know… I am here. If you want to keep talking. And don’t think that you deserve punishment. We make mistakes… I’ve made a lot… but I’m still here.
I have been to therapy and it never works…I have tried a thousand people and nothing i can do changes anything.
I have done the cutting, and its a bad idea, but god i want to…but the more you do it the less it works and so the deeper it goes…and the pain doesnt stop
why wont it just stop?
why dont you change the way your brain works
instead of saying
” i know i deserve to have all this misery”
change it in to ” i know i DONT deserve all this pain&misery”
do you write poetry?
or some sort of diary?
look back through them&see how pessimistic they sound
now write it out again, only doing the opposite
wont means will
cant means can etc
try it, train your thoughts into being more positive&having a brighter outlook on life :)
Anonymous wrote:
I have been to therapy and it never works…I have tried a thousand people and nothing i can do changes anything.I have done the cutting, and its a bad idea, but god i want to…but the more you do it the less it works and so the deeper it goes…and the pain doesnt stop
why wont it just stop?
have you tried the techniques they teach you in your own life, long term? therapy only works if you MAKE it work, and i fail to see how a thousand different therapists couldnt help at ALL…
courtybubble wrote:
sounds like a touch of paranoia mixed in with a dash of anxiety disorder sprinkled heavily with some depression.
to therapy with you, plz.
I don’t think you should be diagnosing anyone. Maybe you should tell them to seek therapy because thats very important, but who are you to be handing out medical advice? You read one tiny paragraph and think you know what the person is going through… grow up.
I’m sorry that you are going through feelings of guilt. I know that you really don’t want to hear anyones post, but it kinda touched me that I’m not the only one that feels this way. I’m a really nice person and I’m guessing, but I can tell by your post that you are always wanting to look out for others rather than yourself. I think that it really helps to build more of a love for yourself. I am finally beginning to love myself for who I truely am and not worry what others think of me. But if I were you I would wake up and look in the mirror and don’t just look at the person on the outside, look at the person in the inside. Think about all the wonderful things you have done in the past for other, now start to think of the wonderful things you need to do to make yourself happy. Think about what a beautiful person you really are, not what everyone else thinks is beautiful, but what you find beautiful about yourself. Write all of the positives on your mirror and read them aloud to yourself everyday. I would seek therapy though and they will teach you other ways to help you get through your panic attacks. I’m trying to do positive things instead of medication and I feel like I’m getting better everyday. Please update us on your progress after seeking a therapist. Bless Your Heart.
courtybubble wrote:
Anonymous wrote:
I have been to therapy and it never works…I have tried a thousand people and nothing i can do changes anything.I have done the cutting, and its a bad idea, but god i want to…but the more you do it the less it works and so the deeper it goes…and the pain doesnt stop
why wont it just stop?
have you tried the techniques they teach you in your own life, long term? therapy only works if you MAKE it work, and i fail to see how a thousand different therapists couldnt help at ALL…
Yes I have tried, I try so hard…all I want to do is overcome this…learn to live with it…and it doesn help for a while but then i just drop right back again
Anonymous wrote:
courtybubble wrote:
sounds like a touch of paranoia mixed in with a dash of anxiety disorder sprinkled heavily with some depression.
to therapy with you, plz.I don’t think you should be diagnosing anyone. Maybe you should tell them to seek therapy because thats very important, but who are you to be handing out medical advice? You read one tiny paragraph and think you know what the person is going through… grow up.
I’m sorry that you are going through feelings of guilt. I know that you really don’t want to hear anyones post, but it kinda touched me that I’m not the only one that feels this way. I’m a really nice person and I’m guessing, but I can tell by your post that you are always wanting to look out for others rather than yourself. I think that it really helps to build more of a love for yourself. I am finally beginning to love myself for who I truely am and not worry what others think of me. But if I were you I would wake up and look in the mirror and don’t just look at the person on the outside, look at the person in the inside. Think about all the wonderful things you have done in the past for other, now start to think of the wonderful things you need to do to make yourself happy. Think about what a beautiful person you really are, not what everyone else thinks is beautiful, but what you find beautiful about yourself. Write all of the positives on your mirror and read them aloud to yourself everyday. I would seek therapy though and they will teach you other ways to help you get through your panic attacks. I’m trying to do positive things instead of medication and I feel like I’m getting better everyday. Please update us on your progress after seeking a therapist. Bless Your Heart.
i wasnt diagnosing anyone O_o.
where on earth did i tell anyone what their actual medical diagnosis is?
who am i? i do happen to have a BA Hons in Psychology, if youre asking what my qualifications are, actually.
feel free to shout me if you have a problem with my replies, or report me, but dear, its quite unbecoming of you to use this post as a forum to take out some sort of grudge against me, that is well documented in other posts.
i am grown up darling, you should try it yourself sometime.
Anonymous wrote:
courtybubble wrote:
Anonymous wrote:
I have been to therapy and it never works…I have tried a thousand people and nothing i can do changes anything.I have done the cutting, and its a bad idea, but god i want to…but the more you do it the less it works and so the deeper it goes…and the pain doesnt stop
why wont it just stop?
have you tried the techniques they teach you in your own life, long term? therapy only works if you MAKE it work, and i fail to see how a thousand different therapists couldnt help at ALL…
Yes I have tried, I try so hard…all I want to do is overcome this…learn to live with it…and it doesn help for a while but then i just drop right back again
ok, so, after so many therapists, what do they say is your problem?
I doubt that you have a BA in Psychology, because if you did you would know telling someone “it sounds like a touch of paranoia mixed in with a dash of anxiety disorder sprinkled heavily with some depression,” is giving someone a diagnosis and that is very hard to do after reading one paragraph of someones feelings about what is going on with them at that moment of pain. I think you need to learn more about the person before you throw your, I know it all attitude into the mix. Realize you do not know it all, no one does, and become a better listener.
feel free to doubt me all you want, but i have the degree on the wall to prove it, and dont particularly care whether you believe me ;)
i did not say “you have clinical depression, not you have a paranoid delusionary disorder” or anything of the sort.
Anonymous wrote:
I’m a really nice person and I’m guessing,
orly, you are?
Anonymous wrote:
Please update us on your progress after seeking a therapist. .
you gave exactly the same advice i did. so…how am i not listening just as well as you are?
either report me, or quit this, because your attention seeking is getting in the way of this person getting help.
I agree she should see a therapist… I don’t agree with the way you come across towards me. Sorry but it’s getting annoying, when I read your post it seems like I’m reading something from someone who is angry. I don’t know why I get that vibe, but I do. I’m sorry for you and I hope that you figure out why you are so angry. Have a Great Day.
i did, thanks;)
Thanks for all your help and suggestions, just knowing someone is listening makes it a little easier…
As for therapy i know i should go back and i will
Thanks again
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