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Are your parents still around? You could see if they could let you move back in with them if they are? Maybe a best friend you can go to?

Well, since you aren’t married that frees you up to leave (and you can still sue for child support later). Get your stuff and go! If you are worried about violence call the cops and get a restraining order. This site tells you how to get one, and also has an 800 number hotline for advice. If you don’t have a place to go, you might look into shelters for battered women (they would take your kid also).

http://www.larcc.org/pamphlets/childr…

**OO*i love you*OO** wrote:
Its just that we have done this before. I am tired. I dont feel like I can deal with this anymore, but Gabriel needs me. that is the only reason I have to live right now. You know when you knew, but your heart takes over and tries to convince your brain that its for the best, and its garbage, thats where i am. i feel like some garbage for even making a child have a father like that. seriously, wtf was i ever thinking? i asked for signs from God, he gave me mad signs. (not tryin to disrespect any religions, or non religions) but i was blind. and here i am.

You may be tired but you need to keep going for your childs sake. You need to get out of there. You should do what adamo has said. It’s the best thing you can do for your child and yourself right now.

Stop regretting your past choices, but take action for a better future! I know it sounds cliched, but there is no point in beating yourself up about what you can’t change. I know plenty of cool people who have psycho, messed-up parents anyway. Your son will be fine. Just get yourself some help and get out of the situation pronto. It may seem like you’re wrecked now, but in a few years when you have a good job and a stable life and a boyfriend who treats you right, you will realize that things aren’t that bad.

rock you like a hurricane

sry that was entirely necessary

So sorry to hear that your sitting there crying :( I am sure that you will have the strength for your child’s sake, God will provide that for you. Do you think you parents would help you to move out and let you stay with them or help find you a safe place to rent where you can hide out?

get some self respect, and get out of that relationship.
if not for you, for your child, who would be far better off with a single parent than with two unhappy ones.

Awww I’m sooooo sorry :( That’s awful! Would your parents lend you some money to come home and stay with them til you get on your feet? Or a friend you can stay with? Or anyone who can lend you money?

That’s not true, Steph. You aren’t the worst mother. You made a mistake and you realize that now and you don’t want Gabriel growing up in that type of environment. That’s smart. Plus in your emails it’s obvious how much you love Gabriel. Never be ashamed. Mistakes happen. Just get out of there asap! Ask your family for help if you need to. The important thing is to get Gabriel and yourself out of there!

**OO*i love you*OO** wrote:
I truly feel like it at this point. I KNEW BETTER than to go back to him, but it seemed right, he is my baby’s father. Stupid. i swear

The important thing is not the mistake that you made, but that you truly learned from it this time. That’s all that matters. You know what you need to do to take care of yourself and Gabriel. Get out of there asap. You are not a bad mother.

no, thats not true. you dont have to stay.
go to a womens shelter, or contact one at least. let them give you the practical advice you need to get away.
you will be able to access emergency welfare, housing, and support to get back on your feet.
it will be very hard, but it is absolutely possible.