I want to kill myself. - Help.com

Sounds like its time to speak to a therapist. Male depression is increasingly common and you may need to get a handle on not only your emotional managment, but management of your social activities.
Not having a job is a major contributor to depression, as is having trouble with school work. I suggest that if it is tertiary education, you may want to take a leave of absence and then come back to it when you are in a more stable conditon.

Depression can be brought on by a life event - a trigger, or some kind of trauma, but some people are pre dispositioned to experience more of a negative mood turn than others. Support and help is out there, even if it is through internet services. Might pay to do a google search on depression, as there is no point feeling alone.

Therapy or councelling can help immensely, as you learn to deal with greif and loss in a more mentally healthy way - lets face it, at certain times of your life, you will lose those you love, whether it be death, a breakup or whatever. It is a normal thing to happen, and feeling sad is normal also. So yeah, look it up; your mental state is your responsibility.

I took a whole lot of panamax, and f*k, I haven’t died yet. I really want to get rid of this live. Can anyone show how i can do to overcome this feeling?

I wanted to go to the doctor, ask for some thing stronger, I wish I could die immediately. I hate my man who swares at me all time. I can’t stand this feeling. I am about to finish my study, and then hope for a job. I dream not rely on him about money. I hate this feeling, even the death is much better.