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I feel like I need to take a breath.

Lately my life has been crumbling beneath me. I moved in the middle of my high school life for pretty much no reason except that my parents would be happier. It is almost half-way through the school year and I havent stood up to my sister and stopped eating lunch with her and SHE DRIVES ME CRAZY and I just want to slap her but if I do, I would have to find the courage in me to ask someone if I can eat with them. But I think that I would feel like a loser cuz it took me this long to break free. and this is only half of my problem. I decided two days ago that I would try out for a sports team. I have been trying to fill the void that I feel after I left my old school ROTC and I came here to this ROTC and no one takes it seriously AT ALL not even a little tiny bit. I just cant beleive that something that I loved is crap here. I tried clubs, honor societies, and then the sports thing. I found out today that try outs were also today and after trying to attend these with no idea of what i needed to bring, i failed…epically. tryouts for sophomores, juniors, and seniors already passed. Today was the freshmen tryouts…so again…epically failing. I dont know what to do. I mean I am making friends but none that I feel like I can be myself with. It takes a lot for me to open up to someone and halfway through last year I finally found my best friend in the ENTIRE world and then I move across an ocean. And I cant help but to feel like everything is ending for me and I dont have a niche here. I am not suicidal at all, let me just make that clear, but i HATE feeling like this. It feels a little better to get my words out, but im still at a loss. I know that this is long and probably no one is going to read this all the way through, but if you are one of the ones that did, I greatly appreciate it. And if you have any ideas to help me feel like myself here, PLEASE help! I think i will feel so much better just knowing that people read this. I needed that badly. Thanks

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Hi yes I read it all :) First of all sounds like your situation is not fun, who moves there kids after halfway into High School?! No good first of all, High School is already hard, so this I am sure is really a lot to deal with. I am glad that you found friend you likes so much there, but what a bummer to move that far away from her!
You are doing all the right stuff trying to fit into the groups they have, but it sounds like to me that you hardly had a chance with no idea about the details like you were to late to be part of it. Is there anything else you can try to join that you might have a chance to be part of?

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