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I am 21 I have been with this guy 7 years since the day I just turned 14 I dont want to get into it to much but we have a 3 yr old Son.
NEVER have I honestly been unfaithful to this guy…Why is he so unfaithful to me? I am not ugly since that would be the first thought… Im a nice looking girl. I have a rational way of thinking I would rate myself an 7 1/2-8 out of 10… I wonder what it is though. I take care of him I litterally have spent THOUSANDS on him getting him out of jail waiting around like an idiot. Crying myself to sleep SO MANY nights he comes home at dawn if EVEN at all! The girls I catch him talking too are skanky with kids themselves someof them. so I wonder is it an issue where he likes trashy girls? NOT ONE in the last 7 years that hes been unfatihful with me for have been decent nice looking girls…the most recent KNEW about me and his son and had the nerve to send him a dirty picture then text back saying Sorry were just FRIENDS! I think its a psychological issue with me? The thought of him leaving is unthinkable with me..IS IT ME? Why do I like being treated like ****? I used to justify it by saying “aahh its not going to happen again” but as Im getting older Im realizing this is never going to end. Its physical he hits me when I confront him about them.. as if I DID SOMETHING wrong! I ask him why do I suffer for all these skanks you talk to while theyre over there laughing there ***** off at me? Some of them rub it in my face that they talked to him… WHY? What is wrong with me? I cry so much. I suffer so much. I try the best in my power to keep him happy so why does he hurt me? Sometimes I do feel worthless but in the end I Know im worth more than that but WHY do I stick around. IM an idiot I know. A dumbass ****** idiot I give myself **** about it all the time. Hes just my best friend of 7 years I dont have many close friends AT all but him… I need help.. I really do. Where Do i start….
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