Love help: I am a heroin addict.

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I am a heroin addict.

My boyfriend of 6 years and I, have been addicted to pain medicine for the past two years, and just this past year have we escaladed to heroin. I never in my life dreamed that we would have a drug problem! Not us! We were both excellent students in school and felt like we could do anything we put our minds to. Smokin and popping a few viks or perks on the weekends with our friends turned into a full blown addiction overnight it seemed. Now, we are struggling financially to pay bills but also to keep ourselves from being sick everyday. I know what we need to do, i know we need help. I know that we need to go to a facility to get clean. My problem is that we both can’t get help at the same time. Neither of us have family that can help or support us. We have a home to take care of and two dogs that i would give my life for. However, I feel like i need to be the strong one and go check myself into rehab and come back strong. tell my boyfriend that once i’m clean and that he’s gotta get clean or we can’t be together. You see i know how strong the cravings are and I know that he’s going to get end up chosing the drugs over me. I don’t think that he loves the drugs more than me, but his brain does. I expect him to to struggle w/it but once i do give him the ultimatum and if he does give into the drugs i’m going to have to follow through with leaving him like I said i would…but i have no idea where i can go if that happens!!! So i’m afraid i will just stay w/him and eventually get back on the drugs myself and the cycle will go on and on and on. if anyone has been through this or knows anything about this kind of addiction…any advice would be Greatly appreciated!!

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tarius #
An Unknown Location | 3 weeks, 6 days ago (12 minutes after post)

I’m sorry to hear that you’re having this problem. I hope it gets better for you.

My only recommendation is to get help. My friend ended up in the hospital because of heroin and we’d never have guessed that she’d even tried it. I’ve had a major crush on her. Maybe go to the doctor, worry about the relationship later, get off the heroin and ask him to do the same. If he’s hurting you and you’re hurting him, it’s not a good situation. Remember, it’s just the drug causing the problem.

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ray48teres 4 #
An Unknown Location | 3 weeks, 6 days ago (15 minutes after post)

you are strong you have to try and help.if you can’t you have to save yourself.it will be a long hard road.but don’t give up god is with you.you may have to go for help but at least you will have your life back.i will pray for the both of you good luck

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M.y.a 179 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 weeks, 6 days ago (19 minutes after post)

hi, i’m sorry i do not have any experience with drug addiction, just wanted to offer some support. you are thinking of doing the right thing! you thought it all through and yes, it would be great if you had more support from your family, but have you got any friends who could take care of the dogs? or finding a dogsitter?

seems that you are a strong person! i hope that you will try the rehab program and your bf will join you. if not, leave him. can’t you rent your own place? have you got a job? where do you live? i’m sure there are some support organizations for drug addicts.

i’d like to wish you the bestest luck with it all! stay strong

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linuxya 15 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 weeks, 6 days ago (55 minutes after post)

What about a drug addiction support group?

Try Google

What about friends and family?

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courtybubble 193 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 weeks, 6 days ago (6 hours, 22 minutes after post)

you dont need advice, youve figured it out already.
go to rehabd, get clean, and if he wont, leave.
done.
its your only chance to get your life back.

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j.t.pears #
An Unknown Location | 3 weeks, 6 days ago (10 hours, 30 minutes after post)

If you are serious about getting clean, Narcotics Anonymous is a good place to seek advice.

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An Unknown Location | 3 weeks, 5 days ago (22 hours, 37 minutes after post)

thank you guys for the support…my biggest problem is i don’t have family to turn to and all our friends that are still around are also in the same boat as i. i just dont know what i should do when i get out and when he doesnt quit i’ll be forced to leave but i have no where to go. I don’t have anyone who can provide a place for me to stay even only for a little bit. that’s my problem. i know i know what to do i’m just afraid that when he doesnt quit i will fall back into the cycle w/him bc i won’t have anywhere to go. i can’t find help w/housing on my own. everytime i call a place they basically act like they cant help me bc i dont have children. i think my only choice is to just try it & hope that he will be ready to do it w/me.

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An Unknown Location | 3 weeks, 5 days ago (22 hours, 43 minutes after post)

****** i meant to post that anonymously. please don’t judge me. i am not big headed or anything, but i know i’m not a typical junkie. i am smart and capable of doing great things, i just hit a really big bump in the road and i’m taking in the experience as good as i can. if anything i still feel like good can come from this. i hope that i was meant to go through this so that i can conquer it and help others who have the same problem. who knows maybe i’m meant to go thru this bc maybe one of my children will go thru a similar problem, and by going thru it myself will make me a better supporter in the future…again thank you guys!!!

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courtybubble 193 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 weeks, 5 days ago (1 day, 3 hours after post)

no ones judging you.
but you need to start planning now for the possibility that when you get clean, you will be on your own.
look into welfare, jobs, start saving money now, sell things, do anything you can to have a safety net when you get out if there will be no one to support you.
and DONT spend the money on drugs.
you will a huge support network in getting clean anyways, why dont you at least look up a local Narcotics anonymous meeting and go along and talk to other recovered addicts, they will be able to give you advice on how to do it.
the more excuses you make for not doing it, the more justified you will feel in not getting clean.

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