sometimes it’s like im in purgatory..

stevethemeve

sometimes it’s like im in purgatory..

i have a future yes.. but at this moment in time, im stuck between space and other’s perception. dreams are (as kansas said) dust in the wind. i just wonder about the time between now and real life.. can i sustain in a manner thats not reminiscent of a child begging for candy from his dentist.. yes future is inevitable, but what about now.. this moment?

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tellmaho #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 5 days ago (58 minutes after post)

memento mori… honest inquiry into the nature of death brings to light the meaning of life.
safe journey

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stevethemeve 25 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 5 days ago (1 hour, 2 minutes after post)

i like that.. memento mori (Remember i am precious). that kind of thought process goes a long way in dark or light passages

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Miss Jessica Bunny 26 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 5 days ago (1 hour, 7 minutes after post)

Steve man, chill out. You’ve got just over a month before you leave for 4 years of intensity, enjoy your time and have a blast till the day dawns.

Maybe Read “F**k it: The Ultimate Spiritual Way” - http://www.waterstones.com/waterstone…

…”To allow every single sentient human being the opportunity to relax, let go and realise that things aren’t so darned important really by using a very simple phrase… F**k It.”

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stevethemeve 25 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 5 days ago (1 hour, 17 minutes after post)

Miss Jessica Bunny wrote:
Steve man, chill out. You’ve got just over a month before you leave for 4 years of intensity, enjoy your time and have a blast till the day dawns.

Maybe Read “F**k it: The Ultimate Spiritual Way” - http://www.waterstones.com/waterstone…

…”To allow every single sentient human being the opportunity to relax, let go and realise that things aren’t so darned important really by using a very simple phrase… F**k It.”

you’re right.. i’ve just never come to this kind of climax that involves all i’ve ever know and all that i cant fathom. the air force will be great in the sense of my future and my existence, but how the **** am i supposed to pass the time between now and the unknown, involving fear and uncertainty. im absolutely being over dramatic, but ****.. its the next four years of my life surrendered to who the **** knows what. tell me you can fell what im sayin

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Miss Jessica Bunny 26 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 5 days ago (1 hour, 21 minutes after post)

I get what you mean, it’s a total loss of control. Your life won’t be owned by you anymore, it’ll be the property of the United States Government. They giving you a good healthcare plan?

And yes, you are being overdramatic lol. A month isn’t that long, just enjoy yourself.

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stevethemeve 25 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 5 days ago (1 hour, 29 minutes after post)

yea, they hook it up as far as health care, living expenses and all that goes. it’s totally a solid deal for a guy like me who doesn’t want to do the college thing anymore. i dont know why im getting spooked all the sudden, thanks for rationalizing though. 36 days to go, yee haw

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courtybubble 178 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 weeks, 4 days ago (20 hours, 33 minutes after post)

actually, you dont have a future.
future is an illusion, tomorrow is done.
all youve got is now, really.
so your purgatory is your reality.

Help me with: Sooooo I was out running with my hellhound, and bent down to pick up her ball….and BOOMCRACKPOPOUCH went something in my back D’:

stevethemeve 25 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 4 days ago (22 hours, 42 minutes after post)

courtybubble wrote:
actually, you dont have a future.
future is an illusion, tomorrow is done.
all youve got is now, really.
so your purgatory is your reality.

i can dig your approach. and i realize that my future is in a certain perspective out of my control or grasp. i guess im just impatient for times to come, future reality. it’s like saying a prisoner on death row can feel the same vibe a month, year or decade ahead of his last meal. not that im comparing myself to a prisoner, its just.. no one can foretell their future on a surreal/unknown basis. we’ve all got this moment in time to decrypt actuality, be it what it will.

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courtybubble 178 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 weeks, 3 days ago (1 day, 15 hours after post)

yea i hear ya, if i could jump the right now and get to the future, i would too :P
but then, i guess if you keep missing all the moments and opportunities that NOW has, your future isnt going to turn out how you planned anyways.

Help me with: Sooooo I was out running with my hellhound, and bent down to pick up her ball….and BOOMCRACKPOPOUCH went something in my back D’:

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