i cant do this anymore

ATearFromHeaven

i cant do this anymore

i just cant, i never thought it would hurt so much.

my ex has a date tomorrow, i found out on facebook. the news cut through me like a knife, i feel like hes stabbed me in the heart now. he is the man i love and i thought he loved me as much but this is kiling me. i dont want to be here anymore. i just want to run, far away where nobody knows me, change my wole identity so i cant be found. i love him, i would cross oceans for him but he cast me aside like last weeks news.

somebody please take the pain away

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littlenick 134 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 weeks, 3 days ago (2 minutes after post)

Have you tried forgetting him? Why are you torturing yourself like that? Have you tried moving on yourself?

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ATearFromHeaven 11 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 3 days ago (5 minutes after post)

i have tried it, i met someone new and i like him, but he isnt my ex, i always thought there might be another chance for us, but now i dont, i feel like hes killed me already, no im just waiting for my physical body to die.

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littlenick 134 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 weeks, 3 days ago (6 minutes after post)

I don’t think it should be that bad. You need to keep yourself busy doing something constructive. You are devoting too much time to your ex and your past and that’s what’s really torturing you. Try to forget him more.

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ATearFromHeaven 11 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 3 days ago (8 minutes after post)

how do you forget someone when everything leads to him, everything i see, hear do, reminds me of him

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littlenick 134 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 weeks, 3 days ago (9 minutes after post)

Just a question. Were you and him intimate?

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ATearFromHeaven 11 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 3 days ago (11 minutes after post)

yes and no, its complicated. its sounds so stupid, but i never evfen got to meet him, i know what everyone will say about it, how can we be in love if we never met? but i am, i really am and now im being torn apart

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littlenick 134 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 weeks, 3 days ago (13 minutes after post)

Is this a guy on facebook or myspace?

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ATearFromHeaven 11 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 3 days ago (14 minutes after post)

both, why?

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littlenick 134 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 weeks, 3 days ago (16 minutes after post)

So he’s your ex that you were dating on the internet?

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ATearFromHeaven 11 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 3 days ago (16 minutes after post)

yeah

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littlenick 134 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 weeks, 3 days ago (21 minutes after post)

Honestly, I will you my take on this. Hopefully it won’t make you angry.

I had a couple or relationships like that. But only friends, but they wanted something more. Something more real. I regard any kind of internet relationship as not real just cyberspace. That’s all.

Anybody and everybody can be anything that they want even when they use the webcam.

You’re letting this relationship damage you and torture you more than any relationship in real life would actually torture you.

If you are dealing with this relationship in this manner, I can only imagine when you actually have to go through the break up of real life and real flesh in person relationship.

You need to see a counselor or a psychiatrist to help you deal with this. Because I’m not sure that you’re going to get much help.

This will happen around the time when you are most hormonal and most sensitive to your feelings getting hurt.

I hope that makes sense.

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littlenick 134 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 weeks, 3 days ago (33 minutes after post)

Well?

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ATearFromHeaven 11 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 2 days ago (14 hours, 46 minutes after post)

im ok, i just calmed down, i guess it was just a shock for me to hear he has a date. and it doesnt help that it is the most emotional time of the month for me.

i need to move on.

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