My life has always been perfect.

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My life has always been perfect.

My family is more than can ask for, my friends are like from a movie, I have always had what I wanted, nobody ever said no to me, I was an A student in highschool and men have always roamed around me. For much of my life I just had to stand and look pretty and things would just come to me. Everybody sees me in a perfect aura and I know it but I’m afraid I am turning numb. I have never been in love, I’ve always ran away from relationships and I’ve always pushed people away from me, because I knew someone would always be there. Now there is nothing that hurts more than my indifference to everything. I am getting older and I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I think I’ve unconsciously started to enjoy knowing I’m something people can’t touch, being ‘the one who has never loved’, that I don’t want to part with that feeling. I just can’t stop now, I reject everyone who wants to be with me, but I selfishly want to make them love me. I am afraid I will end up lonely. Should I just try to be with someone even if i don’t have any feelings for them?

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Eddieee 100 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 4 days ago (10 minutes after post)

NOPE! Hold out!! When it is right, you will know!!! Just remember not to push them away too.

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Anonymous #
2 weeks, 4 days ago (26 minutes after post)

I know how you feel. Kinda sorta. I didn’t even have to try to get good grades, and with my hair and everything. But I never ever found love yet. I kept pushing them away because I wanted to play hard to get. I wanted to feel more wanted. Well.. kinda a bad idea right?

What I’m trying to say is don’t push them away,,, if you truly want to be with them them. you can try and go out with someone for once but only if you feel its right.

sahaven 96 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 4 days ago (30 minutes after post)

.oh my.
your exactly like me.. i never could ask anyone about it because i didn’t know if anyone would understand..

ashely_l 3 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 4 days ago (34 minutes after post)

i think you should move away and just try to make it on your own… find a job and actually earn what you have and then maybe just maybe you might bealbe to find love

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sahaven 96 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 4 days ago (37 minutes after post)

i transfered colleges, im actually doing a little better now :)
change of environment really does help

ashely_l 3 #
An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 4 days ago (1 hour, 3 minutes after post)

wow thats really good to know! i hope you have luck in finding love!!!!

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