I’ve been severely depressed for a long time.

JoMiMo

I’ve been severely depressed for a long time.

I’ve been deluding myself into thinking I’m OK for a long time, but in actuality have been isolating myself from friends, family and society. I got so good at lying to myself I’ve always been able to convince others I’m OK too. Yesterday, I finally snapped and told my mom how I really feel. And it felt good. She and I worked out a plan to get me better, I’m going to start seeing a doctor on Monday and hope he can recommend a good therapist and maybe get me on some meds. The thing is I’m 21 years old, and live in NYC 500 miles away from home. I have no friends or nearby family to help me out. I really want to get better, but I’m scared to death I’ll scam myself and my parents and retreat into my old ways.

Has anyone else out there been through this, and can maybe give me some good advice?

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Engleby77 3 #
GB | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (7 minutes after post)

Keep a diary? Or just remember how good it felt telling your mum about it all, and how bad you feel usually perhaps?

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GB | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (8 minutes after post)

why are you living so far away from home?

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (9 minutes after post)

A couple different. Officially it’s to study acting, but partly because I was desperate to escape and thought by changing my environment I could be better.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (10 minutes after post)

Engleby77 wrote:
Keep a diary? Or just remember how good it felt telling your mum about it all, and how bad you feel usually perhaps?

I hadn’t considered that. Maybe keeping a journal can help remind me of whatever progress I make.

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GB | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (14 minutes after post)

It’s good you told your mum about it, and perhaps you should also tell her about how you’re afraid of falling back into the pattern of deceiving yourself, so that she can give you a reality-check every now and then :/

I never told my parents about my ‘depression’, though I told my brother. He just told me I was ’stupid’ lol. So, you’re very lucky in that sense.

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JoMiMo 1 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 1 minute after post)

Engleby77 wrote:
It’s good you told your mum about it, and perhaps you should also tell her about how you’re afraid of falling back into the pattern of deceiving yourself, so that she can give you a reality-check every now and then :/

I never told my parents about my ‘depression’, though I told my brother. He just told me I was ’stupid’ lol. So, you’re very lucky in that sense.

Thanks, I believe I shall do that too. Sorry to hear about that, have you been able to get any help for your depression?

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An Unknown Location | 1 month, 2 weeks ago (2 months, 1 week after post)

i completely understand and have been there, its very safe to stay in your own little world and incredibly scary to get back out there, but trust me getting out there and leaving your isolation will be the best thing for you. its just the first step thats the scariest. if you could join some sort of group or team environment, like sports, that would be a great first step, your confidence from that wil grow and will enable you to grow, its really all about takin the first step.its very easy to stay isolated and safe in that place but to get better you need support, contact, frienship/sense of belonging. try reading the book ‘ feel the fear and do it anyway’ if you havnt already, its brillant and teaches you that pushing through fear is less frightening than living with the underlying fear that comes from a feeling of helplessness. talking is always good, dont let things bottle up, express ur feelings, even if its with a punchbag!! just get them out, and positive thinking working with a therapist to change your view of the world, and to help you find your place in this world is very important, many people who feel lost just havnt found their place yet, you have lots to look forward too…..

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