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I am worthless.

I am currently studying for a diploma for a career in graphic design, but I suck at it. It’d be ok if I was just not that talented, but I know its because i’m lazy as hell. It’s my fault, my parents supported me so much, they bought me a macbook and built a new room for my brother just so i’d be able to do my work, but I can’t do it. I look at everybody else, they’re all so motivated, talented, hardworking, and I feel it is hopeless. Their work is better than mine, obviously because I put in minimal effort,and I’ve thought about switching courses more than once, but I stop and realize I’m just running away, and that things aren’t going to get any better because I stay the same. I don’t know what to do, I’m wasting my life away on nothing, literally nothing, I have no friends, I hide in my room all day whenever I can, and I don’t exercise. I can’t even say I have hobbies besides sleeping and surfing the net aimlessly. I don’t even have the guts to end it, whenever I get really depressed I lose my mind, I hide in a corner and cry silently and start writhing on the floor like a madman, I don’t even know why I do it. I always feel that my life is perfect, and the only flaw in that is myself. I don’t even know why I’m typing this, I found this site by typing help.com, not knowing that it actually existed. I’m feel useless and pathetic for typing this, I’m a ******* attention seeker, always acting so ******* emo at school, It’s my own **** fault I have no friends, I really wish I could just go to sleep and never wake up, I’ve been wishing for this for a long time now, my only comfort is when I’m dreaming, I even find my nightmares (if you can actually call them that) more comforting than being in the waking world. I don’t even know why I’m posting this, if somebody, anybody can help me be a normal person, please help me……

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8 months ago (6 days, 5 hours after post)

i just want to let you know that you are not alone, i can relate to a lot of this. the longer you remain the way you are, the harder it will be too get out of this or bring about change. i think that a start could be to change your outlook and try not to focus or care about those around you. work hard and practice doing what you need to do for yourself.

being lazy and hiding in your room will not help in feeling any better, it will only make matters worse. try to focus on your goals and what you have to change to achieve them, make a list, and go for it. once you achieve it, you’ll feel motivated to continue.

i hope that some of this helps. good luck.

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ultraviolet offline Verified User (7 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months, 1 week ago (3 weeks, 4 days after post)

hi:
i am so touched by your post. I feel the same. do not think I can help but by looking for help I have found out there are so many people in pain, whay is that?
Is it becouse we are constantly bombarded by noice of media? telling us how imperfect, old, fat and so on we are?how ugly and wrong, how unqualified, unloved?
why can we just be happy to be in this beautiful earth ? and be alive? when did we forget about mornings? how did this happen?
I have been thinking of ways to end my life, but the truth is I want to live, and I am afraid to change live what i call my home, or my husband, I feel unwanted, but I am wrong. there are people who need me, I just need to not be afraid and make that change. Iin compasion for whoever you are, ther is a reason why we are here, and trhat is life and love. be nice to yourself.

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solofoli offline Verified User (8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months ago (1 month after post)

hi ultraviolet
thanks a lot, you helped me more than you believe, I’m still having a tough time trying to get my life back on track. I want to live too, but I don’t honestly believe anybody needs me, next to my parents, and even they have my younger brother to rely on, lord knows he’s a lot more reliable than I am. I really want to change my outlook on life, I want to be like everybody else, but I don’t know how. I’m always so tired and helpless. In fact, I only read your post because I came back to this site to post more of my nonsense. After reading your post though, I was really comforted that there was someone who could relate to me, even though I’m so worthless. Thanks a lot for your encouragement, I think I’ll be able to stick around for a while more because of it.

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ultraviolet offline Verified User (7 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months ago (1 month after post)

Hi solofoli:
you asre worthy!!!!!!!!!!!!!simply because you are alive! that means sometrhing, start beleving that you are wothy because you are. I also have been feling pretty awful but I am looking for help, this time I am talking to differnt agencies,not taking no for an aswer. have the courage to believe in yoursel and your dreams, be greatful for who you are, acept and forgive yoursewls, you will find a way,as far as your studies are going do not listen to negative people, they do not count and if that carreer is making you unhappy keep looking for what could make you proud and happy. you have also helped me. love yourself, keep the faith and walk away from the people and things that are hurting you

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leehampson7 offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 7 months ago (1 month after post)

i know exactly what you mean i feel the same way every day i just want to sleep forever and fel ***p and stupid.

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lollercopte offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 6 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 4 weeks after post)

Kill yourself. Get a gun and blow your brains out the back of your skull.

Do it, ******.

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ultraviolet offline Verified User (7 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 6 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 4 weeks after post)

To
lollercopte
How dare you say that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
who do you think you are?
telling someonde who is unhappy to end his life
yoiu are not a good person

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gisoo.tavakol offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (2 months, 3 weeks after post)

I feel the same and I hate myself, there is nothing I am good at. I hate myself, after 3 years of my graduation, I have not find a job and I feel bad, really bad. I worked for a while and I left my job because of bullying and discrimination and I am not confident enough to work again.
My husband does not underestand me and always critisize me for almost everything.
Disapointed, deppressed and hopelss, for the whole evening all I have done is just crying:(((.

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ultraviolet offline Verified User (7 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (2 months, 3 weeks after post)

hey, you are worthy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! people araund you behave like pricks. do not give tjhem the power to tell you who you are.
you choose.
those people who make you feel like crap, get them out of your life, including your husband. we get husbands and wifes so we can come home to a nice enviroment after dealing with all the nasties of work and life in general, be happy, **** all the rest life is short. stand up for yourself.

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desigal offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (5 months, 4 weeks after post)

I felt the same,hang in there.get out and about.have a massage,healing massage.It helps!

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