I miss my dad.
I walk out of the house. “Jodie?” I turn around to see the man I thought of as my father close to tears, and he sees me in tears. “ You can come visit me anytime you’d like.” I nod. “ Oh and Jodie?” I turn around once more , “I love you, dont forget that.” I start to cry a little bit more. “ I won’t I promise. I love you too.”
My mom met Curtis back in 2003-2004. When they got together he imeditly started being affectionate and loving, like a real father should. I’ll never forget those times we went snowmobiling on snowy days. Or our long trips to Newfoundland singing the whole way. I’ll also never forget how much he loved me. I loved him to. He was the only man I ever have, and will think of as my father. He was amazing to every extent. On all his days off from work we would always do something fun. On hot summer days we would go to the beach and at night have a campfire and on cold snowy days we would snow mobile until we couldnt feel our bodys and then go and sit by the heater with a hot chocolate in hand and watch movies. He did anything for me and I know if I really needed him to now he would.
After awhile he got a job working on the lakes in Ontario. He left every few months for about a month or two. The whole time he was gone I was counting the days until he came home and calling him once or twice a day. I missed him like crazy. Now he has been gone for a year and six months and I miss him more and more each day. I want to call him but now it feels wrong. He has a new family now as do I. But I still think of him as my one and only father. The man who’ll always be there when I need him. Someone I can look up to and count on at any second of the day. If I ever really need him, I know the number. For the last year and six months I have wanted to go visit him but I can never find the right time to just get up and go. I know one day in the near future I’ll get there, knowing that I am never going to want to come home. I love him and miss him so much. I just want my father back with my mother right where he belongs. I just have to wait for them both to realize it. One day he will, and when he does I’ll be right where he left me, with arms wide open ready to let him back into my life right where he belongs. I couldnt picture walking down the isle with any other “father figure” by my side. I hope he knows that.
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