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I am so lonely and depressed.
I have tried suicide 7 times, the first when I was approximately 10 years old. I won’t go into my sorted childhood, but my second marriage is what is bothering me now. He shot himself and killed himself in front of me. No reason, no explanation. I feel so guilty - yet such a fool. My new relationship is rocky. He feels I still love this man I was married to. HELL NO! He hit me, he raped me. I hate him! But I need to know why. How do I stop the voices in my head, the feelings of guilt. I should have done this, I should have done that. I wouldn’t have stayed married to him but I would have tried to save him. I can’t ever sleep at night in bed because this is when and where he did it. Can someone talk to me?
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