Ever feel like you’re not living the life you were meant too?

aris_unlimite

Ever feel like you’re not living the life you were meant too?

Well that is exactly what this post is about. I always feel like I should be living a different type of life. It is no secret to my friends that one of my personality traits is being a protector. And that is such a strong trait, that I constantly wonder why it is not being used. I have a fairly easy going life now, and I kind of feel like all the training, preparation, and life experience I have gone through to make me into what I am has been for naught.

Even though I have these thoughts I still train, and keep vigilant. It would be impossible for me to stop at this point I think lol. It has become such a part of me I don’t know what I would do if I lost that. I would certainly no longer be the person I am now. Besides I am not likely to change…..I don’t make serious decisions quickly (unless in emergency) or without a lot of thought put into it.

I really don’t know where I am going with this guys lol. Thanks for listening.

Basically I feel like I was meant to do more, although the opportunity isn’t there for me to do so. Sometimes I wonder if I should’ve been born in a different time….where my skills would’ve been put to more use.

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insomnia_u 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 years, 3 months ago (4 minutes after post)

I don’t make serious decisions quickly (unless in emergency) or without a lot of thought put into it.

Maybe you should seek a profession change, Something in search and rescue or the army, or for the emergency services.

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₰¢øҭҭұ вøұ 5 #
An Unknown Location | 3 years, 3 months ago (11 minutes after post)

yes i agree, ever thought about a career in the police?

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mattlivv 1 #
An Unknown Location | 3 years, 3 months ago (29 minutes after post)

i feel like you. first off im a bible believing christain ( that is different from the other people that are called christians) and that has given me a whole new fullfilling experience in life that i can everyday be following God the best i can. but then, why am i this person? shouldnt i be in another place where my dreams can be noticed? like it or not we are in the positions we are in for a purpose and sooner or later our skills are going to be put to good use, even your skills.

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aris_unlimite 2 #
An Unknown Location | 3 years, 3 months ago (8 hours, 36 minutes after post)

insomnia_u wrote:
I don’t make serious decisions quickly (unless in emergency) or without a lot of thought put into it.

Maybe you should seek a profession change, Something in search and rescue or the army, or for the emergency services.

₰¢øҭҭұ вøұ wrote:
yes i agree, ever thought about a career in the police?

I got the beginning of my skills in law enforcement, and I have continued to expand them since I have left. I was happy when I worked in that career but the thing is I can’t go back. One of the reasons I left was because of the officers that I had to work with. And due to those officers I now have PTSD (been diagnosed) and can definitely feel the effects it is having on my life.

I have a yearning to use my talents, but I kinda refuse to go back to a career like that, that is filled with politics. It’s not right, when they intentionally set out to harm a fellow officer. Especially right after that officer was in a life and death situation. I obviously came out fine, but they left a mental/emotional scar that I have been living with for 4 years now…..and it’s not getting any better.

And before anyone suggests it, I have already been to a psychiatrist lol. And she helped, but only in the moment. Weekly sessions were not enough, and I refuse to take medication or see a shrink for the rest of my life lol. I am managing it on my own the best I can and rarely have issues with it. My main flare ups are when I am in overly stressful situations that I can’t do anything about (more politics) or when I spend too much time around large groups of people I don’t know (xmas shopping is a no-no for me).

insomnia_u 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 years, 3 months ago (8 hours, 54 minutes after post)

Well i think your on the right track, obviously you are not fulfilled, so i suggest keep trying different things and finding your true passions, i too have not found mine but i have an open mind and hopefully will find them when they become apparent.

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mattlivv 1 #
An Unknown Location | 3 years, 3 months ago (13 hours, 37 minutes after post)

any hobbies?

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aris_unlimite 2 #
An Unknown Location | 3 years, 3 months ago (17 hours, 24 minutes after post)

Oh, I definitely have hobbies lol. I have actually tried cutting back on some of my hobbies, because it can become quite expensive.

My biggest hobby was cars. Which is one I cut back on. I had $11k tied up into my last car just in upgrades and go fast parts lol. But I ended up getting rid of that car because I realized I was spending too much money on it.

Now I have a truck and the only things I am going to do to it, will be just to increase the mileage.

I do still like to go shooting (part of my training that I really enjoy) but I haven’t been able to go lately because of the weather (I don’t like paying for range time) and because nobody wants to go with me (never shoot alone, it’s not safe).

I’ve always enjoyed building models, but now the only place around me that used to sell them, doesn’t anymore. I have to drive for a 1/2 hour to get the stuff to do it, and that is a hassle. Especially if I forget something.

We just got ATV’s, which I love to go out and ride. It’s really fun just to ride them, but exploring new areas is the part I really enjoy. But once again, I have a hard time getting my family to go with me. They don’t like to go 4-wheeling unless the weather is perfect…..which I really can’t understand at all lol.

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