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Depressed and suicidal.

I want to kill myself and truth is I don’t know why. Half the time there’s this painful emptiness inside of me, and half the time I’m in despair. I can’t remember feeling really anything else for more than a few seconds. This has gone on for years now. I’m trying to get help, but it seems like I’m getting nowhere. My parents are trying to keep me from getting help and my doctor seems so distant. I was recently (4 months ago?) diagnosed with hypothyroidism and put on meds, but they aren’t working. Plus, I’m almost out of money. It seems like no one’s taking me seriously. I’m not going to kill myself, so please don’t just say things like “Don’t do it.” I’m not here for your sympathy, I’m here for help. Just a few facts: I’m female and 22. I’ve parasuicided a few times before but nothing serious yet. I’m in college and have no job. Thanks.

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San Francisco, CA, US | 3 years ago (0 minutes after post)

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markcross198 #
An Unknown Location | 3 years ago (5 minutes after post)

i cant say i know how you feel but right now i hate where im at in life but suicide is not the answer do you really want to end your life now when your only 22 im 20 by the way

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An Unknown Location | 3 years ago (10 minutes after post)

I can completely relate to your post as i am feeling the same and also dont feel i am being taken seriously. I think the best thing for you to do would be to go and see your doctor and put your foot down, tell them the meds arent working and demand they put you on new ones. Also do the same with your parents, make sure you get across exactly how it is your feeling about things at the moment! Maybe then they wont seem so against you getting help!

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An Unknown Location | 3 years ago (27 minutes after post)

im the same, i feel like i really cant go on feeling this way but i dont want to kill myself, well if you live anywhere near me you can come live at mine and we can talk about how crap things are lol! on a more serious note though your best bet is seeing your doctor and letting them know how you feel!

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An Unknown Location | 3 years ago (40 minutes after post)

dont think like that, i feel hopeless too, its so hard to understand things like this but the best way to think is positive, no matter how negative things get. You WILL get better, it will take work and determination but it will happen!

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An Unknown Location | 3 years ago (44 minutes after post)

Its ok, i’m bitter too. Lets say… The rest of your life?

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An Unknown Location | 3 years ago (47 minutes after post)

lol, true. The next 70 years then :)

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An Unknown Location | 3 years ago (52 minutes after post)

I too have felt this way and have suffered from 3 autoimmune disorders including hypothyroidism. It sounds like a low grade, chronic depression rather than a situational one which screams out “chemical” imbalance to me. You may need to try several different antidepressants before you find one that works for you. It can make a huge difference in the quality of your daily mood so keep trying …also test for vitamins/mineral deficiencies (I was way low in vitamin D). The thyroid is so much more tricky than most drs know…search Mary Shomon for thyroid info…keep researching and keep trying; you obviously want to feel better and your body is telling you that you are in need of something. Good luck finding what you need!

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gemlado #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (1 year, 10 months after post)

http://misslizzy.me/hypothyroid/

This is helping me right now! I have low days and better days. But its hard ‘WORK’ with Hypothyroidism.
Try and find a good Doctor that will actually listen to you! I see a Homeopathic Doctor and a Hormone specialist.
Hours and hours of internet research help too ;)

Good Luck, and stick in there! Life is worth every drop.

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