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Help me, am I stupid?
Ok, I feel kind of like a piece of **** or stupid at the moment because well basically I apparently have early stages of depression, stress problems and anxiety, I was diagnosed by a Chinese doctor so now im on herbal medication and acupuncture to try nd fix it, bcos apparently ioys all due to my hormones been really out of place. and, I don’t really feeling like telling people, especially like my family, cousins auntys , uncles etc. but I feel like I’ve gone blabbing about to anyone and everyone.
First I told my bestfriend – but I gues she should know, but I feel awkward wen I talk about it to her.
Then I went and told my hairdresser while she was doing my hair, and afterwards I felt like ****, so I told my mum that I had told her and my mum said not to go telling everyone and anyone.
Then at school I told one of my really close friends, sort of out of the blue, I dnt know why.
And now.. I told this friend of mine, whom I’ve only met once thru a friend, I met her at a party, rave sort of thing and have her fb, shes moving into my school this year, one year older, and I was talking to her through chat today, and she told me stuff about how she had depression and needed antidepressants to get rid of it bcos she was depressed , bcos she was obese. ….so I told her about my whole problem ‘about depression etc. and now I dnt think I should’ve told her. :/ Was it stupid of me to tell her? She told me shes only ever told me and one other friend about her depression phase, but I feel like I made her think im a bit weird , bcos at the end I told her it was ‘kynd of a secret’ and she told me, i seemed open about it and told me its not great to tell everyone these things , but its good to talk about it .
I FEEL LIKE AN IDIOT, did I just do something wrong, by telling her?? There nothing wrong about being open about it right .. (?) I mean I dnt see whats wrong with a little hormonal imbalance. It shouldn’t have to be a secret , right (?) ..its apart of me, like any illness, like when u have a cold u tell people , right (?)HELP! (I think this is me being too anxious again :$)
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