I talk to ONE person about my day, feelings, and really just anything that’s on my mind.
She’s a angel in my eyes, there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for her.
We use to talk with each other when ever we could, telling each other anything and everything. We were in-love with each other. I trust her more then anyone, love her as much as i love my mom (not in a weird way). Always wanting to be with her, around her…blah. Anyways, she got raped. She stopped talking to me, a month later it was my birthday and I got a happy birthday from her. I just kept waiting…no words would get through to her. I don’t blame her at all ya know for not talking to me and stuff. Anyways, I waited for like four months then I got this long message from her telling me she got raped and she can’t ever love me the same way again. In other words she said “I love you, and goodbye”. At that point I felt really depressed. I still talk to her, tell her about my day, if I’m excited about something but she never replies…that can’t be healthy for me but it seems like it’s the only thing that makes me feel a bit better.
She told me “if you love me you will move on with your life”. I hate looking for love lol, and I’m not going to stop thinking of her because just so much reminds me of her. To be honest I don’t want to forget her…I still want to be with her. Every second or third day I will send her a email telling her about my life. I usually end it with “I miss you” or “I wish you would talk to me”. I know she probably hates it…
I’ve gotten a lil more self-confidence since I last posted here. Not sure how or why…still suck at chating up women though lol. I’m so shy, so when I find someone as kind and caring as her I tend to hold on tight. It’s hard for me to trust someone with everything.
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