i have never told anyone this, but im gonna give it a try. I am 15, and a sophmore in highschool. there is a girl that has been my friend ever since the end of the 6th grade. i have liked her since the beginnig of 7th. halfway through the eight grade i realized that we were always together. then i noticed how she never seems to leave my thoughts….
i know this sounds like a normal teenager problem, but im not normal. talk to me and you will realize that. i am to… i guess the word would be proud?? to ask anyone i know. but in the past year i have been crazy about her, from the way she walks, talks, and acts in her varying moods to the way she acts when she is depressed. i have told her how i felt, and she didnt talk to me for 3 MONTHS!!!!
god it drove me crazy. then after that i found a letter with a poem attached. she asked if we could talk sometime. so one weekend we went to the park and talked for bout 4 hours. she said she felt the same way, and the only reason she didnt talk to me was cuz she prayed about it, and felt she should stay away. but then she was saying how she always felt like she should be with me after that….
she said she thinks she might love me, and i said that i was almost positive i did… after the talk, she just had nothing to do with me, and i got into some bad stuff and bad people, i cut for a bit, but she noticed i guess, and started to talk and hang out with me again. so im almost back in good spots, i no longer cut. but we have been playin “poem tag”, she is into poetry so i wrote ona asking her what we were going to do, and we have been writing poems ever since, i have bout 64 of hers and she has all of the ones i wrote….
but she hints that she likes me alot (we dont say love that much cuz we know were only teens), but she still hasnt acted upon her words, i have tried but the result was horrible, i am willing to wait for her till i stop breathing, but we spend so much time together ir just kills me with every heartbeat to know that i cant hold her, there is also the problem of her mom, she loves me as a person, and a student, but she hates me when it comes to me wanting to be with her daughter…. so? What do I do?
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