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I don’t really want to live anymore
I’m 16 and basically I’m finding it really hard to justify living. I have had this for more than a year and a half now, and any councelling isn’t going to help. I’m not suicidal, as to be honest, I could probably never bring myself up to ending my own life, however I often (especially now) just want my life to stop. Today I just did my English exam. And yet again like the mid-year, I completely stuffed it up. Pretty much failed. I haven’t got my results back but I know I did. I studied for a week, more than most, but I really hate my English teacher because he told us to study the wrong stuff. When I get bad results from something like an end of year exam, I just really don’t find myself wanting to live anymore, because I have high expectations of myself to get into uni to become an aeronautical engineer, but at this rate it isn’t going to happen.
I’ve still got a whole week full of exams, and I really don’t want to do them. Right now, I just want the clock to stop ticking, I don’t want to live any longer. I have had this for a year and a half, and I’m not crazy, not selfish, I just don’t want to go through any more misery that I seem to get every day.
I’m posting on here because I guess I just need to let it out. But there’s no solution to failing life, so doctors, medicine etc is not going to help.
I am going nowhere, I am ruining the expectations of my family, friends and of myself and there is just no reason why I want to live any longer.
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