Ok, I am pissed of with my life.
I have been a pathetic drunk for 12 years now and am only 32. I have become a piece of **** with nothing to offer anyone including my family. If I were to keel over now, I truly beleive everyone in my life would be better off. Yet, I am still here. I drink every night and become suicidal after drinking. I don’t feel I would ever acually take my own life but then again, maybe things just have not gotten bad enough. I have a habit of doing stupid crap when I drink as a way of punishing myself. I have been good, I have not done it in months, but do have a history of cutting and taking overdoses on pills. I need some feedback tonight as I am feeling this way again for the first time in a long time. I just need some helpful support to get me through the night.
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