Sorry I didn’t see your post. I see you aren’t feeling any better then our last shouts.
I know everything is so hard for you right now. You just can’t give up this fight. You have pulled yourself up before, and you can do it again.
You were put on this earth for a reason and it was not to give up. You are going through all this crap for a reason. What reason I do not know, but I trust you are going to get through this and be one of the most wonderful, strong, wise, compassionate women I will ever have the pleasure of knowing. It is hard but it is building you into something wonderful.
Do you hear me? You are so worth fighting for. So don’t let what happen to you win. DO not let it have the control.
Think of yourself as two people.
One is the the hurt child - The one that is so scared and angry and hurt that she can not function.
The other is the real you - The one that would be there no matter what happen in your life. She is the strong one. She is the one can comfort and help you through this.
You need both these parts of yourself, because that is who you are. But when you are feeling like you were when you wrote this post. Look to the real you. Let her guide you through the rough night.
I love you and you can get me through my email anytime.