So what’s to say?
My life is moving foreword in a brand new direction.. I dig the progress, but there still remains sections of the past, quadrants on graph paper, either block by block or many by many that still claim my happiness. I couldn’t really ask for more. I live in a new area with new people who have no recollection of my past, but i remember. February 10th lays claim to my biggest regret: a friend who took his own life as a direct/or maybe indirect result of my own indifference. Maybe i could have stopped him, but maybe not.. thats beside the point. the weight of maybe is just as heavy as certainty. I miss him. We were in 8th grade when he took his own life, 9 years ago. I cant remember what his voice sounded like or exactly what he said that last time he called before pulling the trigger. But i know i miss him. The stain of his suffering is unbearable at times, but i’ve survived. without justification. World, help.com, zac’s parents.. im sorry he’s gone. his image or potential will forever lay stagnant on the consciousness that is today. no one will take his place or will be what he could have been.
I love and miss you zac. I hope with all my heart that peace is with you now.
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