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I told my mother this morning about my severe agoraphobia… kind of. On her way out the door to go pick up someone’s shift at work, she kept hassling me, asking me if I am going to school and if I am not I should tell her instead of keeping up a charade because why would I want to do that… so I said “No, I’m not going to school.” So my mother, who believes I’m suicidal, tells me I’ve ruined my life and that financial aid will never take me back. I told her I haven’t dropped out, but I will. She says more of the same thing and that I’ll never afford to go back. So I tell her “Well, if I can’t afford it, then I won’t” She says more of the same thing.I go to the restroom where I hear her say things about how I need to get a job and something about how she told me and I’m not mentally retarded. Then, after she leaves, about three minutes later, bursts in and says “You’re going to school. People do things all the time they’re uncomfortable with, they do them anyway.” Then she left again as fast as she had arrived.

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So, obviously she won’t be helping me with any of this, I don’t know what I am going to do… if there is anything I can. There isn’t anything I can do. I don’t really have any outs. I’m in control of this or anything. I just don’t know what to do now. My older sister I’ve told about all this this afternoon. She says she’ll look into things for me, so there’s that. I hope she finds something.